&:herstory.

A Million Miles Away.

2006-09-13T03:46:00.000+08:00

a million miles away

here we lay face to face once again
silence cuts like a knife as we pretend
and i'm wondering who will be to first to say what we both know
we're just holding on to could have beens and we should be letting go

it feels like your a million miles away
as your lying here with me tonight
i can't even find the words to say, i can't find a way to make it right
and we both know that the stories ending, we play the part
but we're just pretending and i can't hide the tears
cause even though your here, it feels like your a million miles away

was it me, or was it you that broke away?
for what we were is like a season love is change
and everytime i think about it, it tears me up inside
like the rivers of emotion, but i got no more tears to cry

we can try to talk it over, but we walked that road before,
while our song is playing its last note,
we both know for sure that its time to close that door.

goodnight, love.

OBSESSION; movie week.

2006-09-12T12:55:00.000+08:00

a drug that'll keep me sane, like you.

it's gonna be girl's day out with fara.
we're catching an evening movie, and then as usual, retail therapy!
days back, we had a hilarious time playing Xbox 360 with nizzy and syazzy.
fara: nu! what game do you wanna play?
nurul: fight fight, kick kick! karate karate!
so we played dead or alive, (which of course i won most of the time).
syazzy: wah, this one never give chance sia.
i've got the skills okay. and one of my karate girl had huge boobs
that kept bouncing. (i think that's the reason why the guys lost).
because they aren't concentrating on the fight but those boobs instead.

then we switched to burnout, that car racing thing.
we were shouting in the room, okay no, i was shouting in the room.
was so hilarious, i couldn't control my excitement each time a car bangs me.
or rather, i bang into something and the car smashes. fara: driving fail ah nu!

so anyhows, work wasn't as bad as i expected it to be last night.
RHM was on off, but he dropped by last night. and had to tease me with
the chips he was eating. because he knew i loved those, then he was like,
mmm, nice ahh the fries.. -_-" then he kept texting me, asking me to smile
and all, lol. that's my manager for you. but yea, i have to admit work was boring
last night. monday blues, i was tired, felt sick. i could taste the fever, weakkk!

will most prolly be meeting my babycakes tomorrow.
speaking of that, last night was one unforgettable night on the phone
with him. we ended up sleeping around four plus in the morning, when he
had school at seven. ahemmm. don't ask me what we talked about, lolololol!

anyhows, gotta get going. meeting my cherralily skittles at three.
ba-weep-gra-na-weep-ninny-bong.
han: is it just me or are you speaking thai?! hahaha.

LIBRA.

2006-09-11T16:52:00.000+08:00

ba-weep-gra-na-weep-ninny-bong.
hello, i am libra.

very gentle.
nice...when needs to be.
loves, one of a kind.
silly, fun and sweet!
unique sexiness.
most caring person you will ever meet!
by far the FINEST.
attractive both inside out.
out-spoken.
love being in long relationships.
very honest.
revengeful, rwarr.
giving.
has to be forced to fight but when
they fight they dont lose!
she's naughty baby!

mmmhh, found those zodiac things on friendster.
and bababooey! look what i found for virgo.
always horny, like right now!
(f.y.i, my babycakes' virgo)
so true, so true!

okay-ohh, off to work.
bacon up that ass girl!

through everything, we're still LOVE.

2006-09-10T18:11:00.000+08:00

through jerks, whores and goodbyes,
our hearts still wants each other.

just ended a phone conversation with my horny little plus one.
oh, in case you didn't know, i've dumped sean faris. grew sick of him, ha!
jees, i'm feeling so colddd. i think i might be falling ill soon enough.
all these lack of sleep thing is driving me insane, insayyyne!

carl and me spent our 365 a few days back.
and lunch was on him at the cafe cartel a day before.
been spending some time together lately, and we've been pretty tight.
the summer obsession; to be tight, to be close, to be real.

we may not have gone through everything, but we know we've
gone through alot, been through lies, betrayals, worst ever arguments,
infatuations, flirtations, temptations, and people say 'f*ck that slut!', et cetera..
(oh, i don't have to mention more) but in our hearts, we love each other like mad.
well, we do now, very much so. and if you think you can tear us apart, well you
sure can, you know you're that slut. (scoff) ah jees, 'nuff, skanky dandruffs aside.

its going to be all worked up for the next three days, so wish me energy!
and fara just got back from bangkok recently, being pure sweetness, she
bought me a pretty pretty skirt and a pair of danglings, adorable.
i've been pretty addicted to ben and jerry's cookie dough ice cream,
mrs fields double chocolate fudge, caramel cream ice blended, ah what else.

basically, i'm just all sweet, ha!
and anyhows, its work tomorrow, and i'm pretty sure
i need tons of sleep (which i'm left with not much), so it's bedtime.
i'll try to keep my blog updated, as much as i can. and f.y.i, i need to
brag a little, had my usual retail therapy a few days back,
and i got myself this pretty so pink two way foundation by IN2IT.
the whole casing thing is sweet pink, and i had my pink rhinestones too,
so i sticked it on the case, so girly! every girl loves to brag, yes.

sweet dreams and snuggle tight.
don't let the bed bugs bite, crawl in your head
and lay eggs in your brain, goodnight!

Canny; i'll see you saturday. JERK, get outta my way.

2006-09-06T11:23:00.000+08:00

now i live for me, boy does that make you weak.

chances, and giving in seems unbearably countless.
now when my heart's totally turned its back on this,
says to do anything and everything just to keep me,
and never let me go. promises and swears, begs and pleases..
only now? i don't wanna be such a fool again.
do you only realize it now that you need me?
only when i tell you that it's already the end?

the days have been pretty fine, spent most times with
my girlfriends, you know they're the sweetest bitches.
krunk was okay-alright. could've been better.
and tanning monday went gooood with this someone! ahem.
its definitely so much better without much people around.

work this whole week except for thursday and saturday.
oyeahh, cash rolling in. saving up the dollar bills for
muhnay muhnay things, ha. ben and jerry's this
saturday too! ah, i can't wait. so little time so much to do.

then weenie woons and me had swensens the other day,
been a longggg time since i had that. breaded chicken,
fish and chips, yummay. and now i'm craving for mutton chop.
i think it's a monthly thing where i start craving for muttons!

work was alright yesterday, had lots of chicken wings!
and guess who dropped by? mtv's vj colby. we took pictures!
but i'm a little too lazy to upload them, maybe another time.
he was messing around with me about drinks and all.
then decided for whisky ginger ale. sounds not nice at all, ha!

daymn, i miss my homegirls please.
JUNIE, JANNAH, ERNIE, FARA, NICOLE.

pictures from tanning monday.
and more to come.

second day? better than the first! ; & END IT please.

2006-09-01T09:31:00.000+08:00

several ways to die trying.
oh, how we've shouted, how we've screamed,
take notice, take interest, take me with you.

second day of work? better than the first!
reached holland village on time, sat around.
supposedly to start at seven but i began at six.
then RHM gave me a huge plate of chicken bites.
gobble gobble! by the time it was eight, there were more
people around, which means, busy, but a little bit more fun!

it was NAMCHI's first day, and my second day.
so RYAN was telling me, (they like calling me kakak or makcik)
kakak, you're senior by one day, so you know what to teach her ok?
LOL. yeh, i'm sure. so i met new customers who were friendlier, they learnt
to pronounce my name, since they're caucasian and all. no-ru? ohh, nurul..

RHM kept introducing me to almost everyone.
i don't even remember their names, okay maybe some.
and the best part is, i got to try Banana Daquiri. yummma.
and, the bestest part, he made me LYCHEE MARTINI too!
since they all know i love it, ha! and since i started working,
there are like chocolates in the fridge for me to eat. MALTESERS
of course and Snickers. then RHM's friends came over, had dinner
and they bought cute little chocolate cakes. then i had the all-chocolate
one to myself. RHM, "you are seriously gonna get fat working here."

ha! crossfingers, i hope not.
besides having real good food and drinks, making new friends
and acquaintances are one of the best things there too. they're all
really funny. like this white guy (sorry i forgot his name).
passed him his bill and mastercard, and he had to sign the little receipts.
so he was asking me, how would you like this signed? like bruce willis?
ha! they sure got some sense of humour to make working so much better.

then when work ended, we stayed in the bar, listened to the radio,
RYAN and ME were singing along to songs that were played.
from backstreet boys, to blue, westlie, and jon bon jovi.
and then unfaithful was on radio, RHM likes that song.
so we sang out loud for him to hear, ha! i don't wanna be, a murderer..
then we had food again! onion rings, eggs, tom yam soup, beef stuffs,
rice and all that. mushrooms too. *pinches fats.

and so today, a day i'm so looking forward to, partaaay!
updates again soon enough. gotta have breakfast!
and oh, really funny. was in the middle of an msn chat with
babygirl NICOLE, then suddenly she told me there was some
fire drill going on. and we were like laughing and all that,
i was telling her to run for her life. LOL! morning jooks.
oh yes, silly quizzes i took.

do you need a man?

you don't need a man, but you want one!

you like having a guy in your life, and overall, you prefer not to be single. you won't go out with a guy out of desperation.. 'cus you rather be alone. however, when you're single, you do tend to obsess a little over dating. because no matter how good your single life is, it's better with a great guy around.

would you pick your boyfriend again?

you would pick your boyfriend again!

while the initial new couple spark has faded for you two, you've built upon your attraction and formed a deep love. and although things are never perfect, they're usually pretty great. so don't let your eyes wander. you've got the best catch for you, at home.

First day of work; TIRED, lazy. bahhhh. so hard to trust a jerk now.

2006-08-31T03:22:00.000+08:00

baby i don't care.

crooning to put 'em high by stonebridge feat. therese.
was my first day of work, and daymn, was good!
but after months and months of slacking, then finally
back to earning the moolah, i find it hard not to feel lazy.
even at some point of time, i just feel like sleeping to the
great ambience. i won't be surprised to find myself asleep while working.

started out with a heavy downpour in the evening,
thankfully my brother was around, and he sent me off to work.
surprisingly, he was reminded that a friend of his,
works in holland village. and shockingly, that friend of his,
just happens to be my manager. what a small world, i know right.

they're like good bike-riding friends or some sort.
how unexpected. so i started work at six, was guided through
with a lot of stuffs i'm really new to. made new friends with the
regular customers there. they're all really nice, and so friendly.

and working there is like really really fun.
you get to eat good food too! even my manager mentioned,
"you're gonna get fat working here! eat and eat. then your
brother will kill me for turning you big." ha, i better watch my diet.

then i went off to 7-eleven to get chocolates. bumped into carl's sister.
then back to work again, the usual. met up with people
i'm new with, the regulars. each of them has like nicknames.
like, bugs bunny, batman and robin, and so on..

then my colleague made frozen margarita and i got to try it.
yum, yumm! and so i got a little bored, was looking through the
drinks list. and it cracked me up, slippery nipple, cock sucking cowboy,
quickf*ck and i don't know, what else? there's more. LOL. pussynene.
ha! okay i am just kidding on that one.

and oh, i floated on air a little bit when
this guy who had pints of erdinger, flattered me.
"nurul, you are really doing a good job on your first day!"
maybe he was just high, or maybe he didn't mean it,
or whatever it is, still made my night! thank you thank you.

mmmh, anyhows. my eyelids are getting heavier after each
sentence i type. so i'm very sure it's time now for my sleep.
my very good sleep with sean faris. ahhh goshhhhh!
work again tomorrow, but i have to meet some goon who
desperately wants to see me, so he could pass me his mp3 stuffs
for me to update the songs in it. okay, i really am tired.

goodnight, sleep tight, sweet dreams.
don't let the bed bugs bite. crawl in your head
and lay eggs in your braaaaain. infinite X's and O's.

i can't wait..

got a job!; he's still like shit. OVER. a new life for me, reborn.

2006-08-29T10:45:00.000+08:00

unforgivable sinner.

(25th August)
and so just some little updates, it was fara-friday.
i was real sick when i woke up in the morning,
supposedly kiting turned out to be better than planned.
and no, we didn't kite, but we had much better fun instead.

was late to meet fara over in town, headed for lunch at
the pizza hut. couldn't really finish our food though.
and then we went for our usual retail-therapy until
fara decided to get hair-dye, then over to her place.

at her place, we were recording our voices to jojo's new single.
it was so much fun, we tried about more than a couple of times
until we got the best mix. with laughters, bloopers, sugar,
spice and everything else really nice. too little too late.

then we started dyeing both our hairs. & thanks to myself,
i was wearing my cropped white pants, and now, two drops of
hair-dye can clearly be found, daymn. how careless can i be.
we took pictures, got crazy, washed our hairs, wet our pants.

then i received a call, got a job! for 6.50 per hour, nassssty.
wasn't expecting it, but yeah, am so loving it now that i've got a job.
finally something to get me off the months and months of slacking.

saturday, (26th August). an all girlfriends day out.
JUNIE came over early to my place, we both got ready and
left for holland village first, since my job manager had some
orientation going on for the two new femmes working at the bar.
so that includes ME and this girl, MITCHI. (or something..)

it wasn't even my first day of work and i was already late.
supposedly to reach at 3:30PM, but i stepped foot in the bar
at 5:15PM. when i came, MITCHI's orientation was already done.
so the turn was all mine. so RAHIM, the manager started yakking,
yakking and yakking throughout. all about the menu and so on and
so forth. the complicating part was all the BEERS, ALCO, WINE..

"erdinger, comes from germany. heineken, from holland.
asahi, japan. san miguel, phillipines.." i was like pretty surprised
that things like these i had to remember. there is like a huge list
of beverages that i had to keep in mind. so people, anyone who's
down for drinks, happy hour is from three to nine! 50% off draught beer.
1 for 1 on bottled/can drinks. & 7dollarsnett for a glass of wine.

now take this. roche mazet merlot terrazas de los,
mendoza, argentina cabernet sauvignon. red wine.
seriously, i can't even pronounce it right. gee, scary.
then JUNIE saw something we both started giggling.
"eh, i want. you want? pussyfoot." it's a drink. haha.

and so bla bla bla, yakkedy yak, RAHIM went off to tend his
customers, and JUNIE whispered to me how hungry she was.
and then we had spaghetti. oh yum yum, real nice.
we had the whole huge plate to ourselves, but i couldn't finish
mine. if you remember, i've been low on appetite lately.

after food, RAHIM ran through a few more stuffs.
talk about rowdy customers, annoying ones and all that.
and "if a customer asks you out at the end of the day,
don't come find me ah.." LOL, i'm having fun already. -_-"

the job is really flexible with no strict rules.
i mean, basic rules are definitely to be kept in mind.
like "the customer is always right" and all that.
but this is a chillout bar, so nothing like standing
straight, and bowing or whatever nots is needed.

like RAHIM said,
"we can even sit beside them and take orders, just have fun!"

and so orientation ended, i chose the days to work this week,
wednesday, thursday and sunday. hmmm, i'll see how it goes.

so after holland village, JUNIE and i left for orchard road.
met up with NICOLE, after so long! was real ecstatic when i
saw her. then we walked down to mccafe, met up with FARA
and NAT. had some drinks, then left for the esplanade.

chilled around, made noise, took pictures, then babygirl NICOLE
was feeling hungry, so we went to "makansutra la! not kamasutra!"
to get carrotcake. then carl wanted to meet me, and he got me mrs fields.
now i'm addicted to that stuff. lots of chocolate stuff, yummmy.

so my girlfriends and i went to meet another beloved girlfriend.
JANNAH! missed her too much, but she left me for another
nazomi guy. how sad, pfft. ha! just messing. it was so fun.
then we had to leave for clubbing, but after some measurements
made, clubbing was cancelled and we (Junie, Fara, Nat & Me)
decided to crash over at FARA's place for a pyjama party!

then we went to MSQ. carl and his bunch of friends were there.
they were hitting on my girlfriends! how chi-ko-pek. so we left,
then you won't even believe what we did at the basement.
DANCED DANCED DANCED, laughed our asses off as i tried
to imitate madonna in her hung up music video. it was hilarious!

then we walked back to the station, to get home.
then again, carl and his friends wanted to meet..
la, la, la, we all took the train home and over to fara's place.
junie headed back to her place and only came around five in
the morning. so it was me, fara, nat and some bunch to woodlands.
someone always has the urge to pee in every train ride. -_-"

reached woodlands at almost 1, went to mcdonalds to take away
supper for the girls. then walked towards pyjama party house.
hahaha. then as we were walking, with rottenstar and some bunch,
our french fries dropped on the floor. and quite a lot were scattered.
so what else, the girls didn't wanna waste food, we squatted and
picked the fries to munch! "sedapp eh!" daymn, it was so funny.

then we walked, and one of us started screaming and running.
and since rottenstar only stays a couple of blocks away from fara's,
he sent us under the block. thankfully! or we females would have
been terrified of ghost and all. as usual, we got scared again and
ran out of the elevator once the door opened. really funny girls!

reached FARA's room, and the first thing we did was took off
our tops, and had supper in bra and jeans! ohhhh, yummy right.
and then we went to wash our faces, put creams on our faces,
and started doing a whole lot of girly stuffs together. GIRL POWER!

the pyjama party was a total hoopla. thanks to FARA, NAT & JUNIE.

to my homegirls, ernie, fara, jannah, junie.
i love you like a fat kid loves caykke!!

monday, (28th August) my bestfriend, ERNIE came over to my place.
then we went out for dinner with my family. so much food but such
tiny tummies, nurul and ernie. bought bubblegums and all. then slept
in the car all the way home from JB back to SINGAPORE.

and today, i have to meet RAHIM since we're attending this
heineken thing at Harry's Bar, the Esplanade. (aiya i feel so lazy now)
then tomorrow it's work. there should be some other stuffs
i gotta say, but that's all for now as my fingers are dying of
exhaustion from typing. ha! time for my shower and then bounce!

more pictures soon!
and yes babies, sean faris is still the hottest!
and OMG, to the movies on friday and ben&jerry's
with with with with.. AHHHH, my girlfriends knows best!
(: does the happy jiggy jig jig + huge widest enormest smile! :)

you know where you've sent her
you sure know where you are.
you're trying to ease off
but you know you won't get far.
and now she's up there sings like an angel
but you can't hear those words.
and now she's up there sings like an angel.
unforgivable sinner.

i thought i knew you; quit mindfucking me.

2006-08-25T04:01:00.000+08:00

quit mindfucking me.

you sure have changed since yesterday, without any warning,
and you want me badly, you can not have me,
i thought i knew you, i thought i knew you so well..

oh my, oh my, ohhh.
sean faris is so hot, i'm orgasming. (ok, no?)
want another piece of him, wait, after my rants down below.

okay, let me talk about my thurs-day&night feeling so right.
the afternoon was so good! videoshooting with ash and rahman.
the scenes were really cool, but i shan't say much here.
the best part was smashing the guitar! kicking the guitar and all.

before all that smashing thing thang, we used screwdrivers
and vandalised the guitar. as usual, i carved my name.
hey, you don't get to vandalize guitars often, or even like smash them?

but the shooting was all perfect, although the weather was scorching
hot that i can cook an egg on some ah-pek's bald head, seriously.

then back to ernie's, got ready and off to holland village.
oyeahh holland village. we headed down to indochine.
met rory rory man-united. then he gave us those really
i'm-too-lazy-to-fill-it forms. the smell and the background
music was real nice. besame mucho and la vie en rose in hindi remix!

after indochine, walked around the village.
with ernie's irritating poot. & grandfather smj.
hungout, burger king and i got a free hersheys sundae pie!
ahh, you gotta love that one. then there's this chinese boy
who took that king crown you can find at those BK outlets,
and i was like, hey i want it too! and i think he heard me say,
so he turned back and say, you want it? and he gave it to me!
then he went back to that rack and took a new crown for himself.

LOL! aw, how sweet chinese boy.
then i asked ernie, we should have exchanged friendsters or something.
ernie: NURUL? HE'S NOT CUTE!
poor me, all i wanted was a new friend.. ha!

and then we started taking tonnes of pictures,
okay let me rephrase that, and then i started taking tonnes of photos.
then all of us grew tired except for irritating poot, and then
we took a cab back to home sweet home. tomorrow holland village
again, and then kiting with FARA, and of course retail therapy! oyeahh..

i know who i am, but who are you? you're not looking like you used to,
you're on the other side of the mirror, so nothing's looking quite as clear,
thank you for turning on the lights, thank you, now you're the parasite.

i can't wait for friday, saturday, sunday, monday. ahhuh.
and okay, seriously, i have to stop sleeping at five everyday now.
no kidding, i'm going to the docs to get sleeping pills if i really can.
it's thirty minutes to five, i better hit the sheets because i'm meeting
FARA at twelve. yishun last cabin? (no, holland village.)

so that only means, i have to wake up freaking frooking early.
i'm so for tomorrow and the days and days and days after.
good looord, it's all now ctrl + alt + del = CLEAR.
mmmhh, got to go! sean's calling..

(and oh, the phrases in italics, sunday morning by no doubt.)

goodnight, sleep tight and sweet dreams. don't let the bed bugs bite.
crawl in your head and lay eggs in your brain.

rilokiley; it happened again and i'm so sick of everything.

2006-08-23T18:10:00.000+08:00

i keep on talking trash, but i never say anything.

still couldn't sleep early last night, but what the hell.
i woke up this afternoon and damn, gastric pains.
it made me want to cry, 'cus i really hate them pain.
but my friends were really sweet to me, being concerned and all.

so it's nurul's stay-home-wednesday, pretty bored.
but i guess i'll be taking a nap later. i feel so weak.
and i should be stuffing myself with food since i haven't
really had a proper meal since God knows when.
if you ask me, the appetite is just not there.

crooning to rilo kiley. a nice one would be does he love you.
and tomorrow, i have this video shoot thing. i'm guessing it
would be kinda cool since i'm doing it with my friend's band.
this week should already be down with plans. videoshoot tomorrow.
friday with fara. saturday with girlfriends. movie on a sunday.
(ben&jerry's too!) and yeah, include maltesing for all the days. ha!

and i feel kinda bad, been post-poning movie plans with ritz,
and the day never comes. then dragging coffee&movie dates
with ashes. ha, i think all my friends wanna run away. but i suppose
next week should be fulfilling the plans, i guess. mmmmh, ha!

i'm already missing my homegirls so much.
ernie junie jannah farah nikki! yehawww.
just can't wait to meet each and everyone of them.

anyhows, it's time for my very good rest.
everything seemed so wonderful, until you came around.
you just had to ruin my happy thoughts. you just had to
say you need me back in your life again. those things i've heard
too many times before, and now i've heard enough. i've HAD ENOUGH.

"all i wanted is just to be with u.
i don't need more i still just wanna have u.
if u really love me than don't throw all the love to waste."

boy, all your pleases don't mean a thing, no more.
now you say you really wanna stop being close to whoever,
& you just wanna be with me again.. mmm, right, hah.
if that is what you call love, then your love is what i call trash.
the only step i need to take is putting it to waste.

to think i would fill you with a chance this time,
when you blew your "last one". you ain't fooling me again.

it's about what you do, not what you say.

you take my hand, and you say you've changed
but boy you know your begging don't fool me,
because to you, it's just a game, you know it's just too little too late.
so let me go now, 'cus time has made me strong,
i'm starting to move on, i'm gonna say this now
your chance has come and gone.

i gave you everything, but it wasn't enough,
and now you wanna communicate, you know it's just too little too late.
go find someone else, and i'm letting you go, i'm loving myself,
you got a problem, but don't come asking me for help.

too little too late, Jojo.

just give me a break.
give me SEAN FARIS, my plus one.

SEANFARIS; but i haven't settled it with you.

2006-08-23T00:27:00.000+08:00

would you lie with me and just forget the world?

today was nice, we were lying on the couch when
snow patrol was playing on mtv, but nothing means it.

i didn't really eat the whole day, probably because i didn't
really have the appetite. and i guess tonight, i should be
sleeping in early. stop it with the lack of sleep habit.
am just exchanging chats over on msn, & maltesing.
and rapping with my babygirl Nikki.

babygirl:
we got our thang going down, move it all`round,
honey i'll show what's hot, i'll go up on your lap,
and i show you what i got.

nurul:
sexaye baby, this girl's ma homay. we do our thang,
it's the real shit. no girl's so down like how we do it.

babygirl:
nurul's ma babe, girl thang fo life, you got a prob widdat,
get outta ma sight. don't need yo crappin', we thru with all that.

nurul:
nicole in ma world, she's ma babygirl, she gon' make you bitches
tongue swirl, you wanna mess with ma girl?
bitch, go make yo pussy hair curl.

babygirl:
lets get dwn wid it, get drrty n messaye,
gt dis guys all wet & beggin fer meyh.
mah babe nurul is in, we're gonna steal e show,
we're ridin' the guys like a rodeo.

nurul:
nurul and nicole, booties obvious, the dirty tricks and hoes
get so envious, you bitches don't foget we're the kisslicious.

oyeahhh, that was definitely boredom killing.

will be spending this whole weekend with my homegirls.
and yeah, it's the last few episodes of life as we know it.
man, i love that show. and yes, sean faris is the new sex!
i've got him for you here. sean faris, my plus one. oyeahh.

isn't he just so hot. that's the cutest and my favouritest
photo of him in my laptop. ahhh man, he makes me cream.
so anyhows, will be hitting the sheets in a bit.
i'm in a call right now, so goodnight all.
sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite.
crawl in your head and lay eggs in your brain.

and oh, i was bored, really bored.
my bratz doll was listening to paris hilton
on the ipod and so i taped her, wicked!
mmmhh okay, gotta go! sean is already calling me to the bed. ha!

if it makes you happy, it can't be that bad.

2006-08-21T04:53:00.000+08:00

if it makes you happy, it can't be that bad.

what am i doing at this hour? absolutely nothing.
just crooning to sheryl crow and chatting with
ILHAM (hamtaro, hamlet, hamburger, best of all, thambi.)
we are both complaining about eye-bags.

seriously, i need to get hold on sleeping pills.
but the dumb thing is, i have no idea where to get
it because when i ask everyone, some say (from the docs).
some say, (you can't get it anywhere easily).
some say, (it's illegal) i swear this insomnia is killing me.

and oh, i'm back to my entries, (if you haven't noticed, ha.)
my days have been fabolously spent with my girlfriends.
the other time was skate park again and again with baby-J.
and we had so much fun watching people skate and all.

as usual, with my daily dosage of MALTESERS.
and boost-boost. ahem, both baby-J's knows this.

and then for the whole week of the fireworks festival
including the national day works, we girls (ME,JANNAH&FARA)
had such an awesome view of the glamour fire. especially the last
day of the firework's festival. magnificent view, & some
hot policeman right behind us as we were sitting
along the railings of the "in between esplanade/merlion" bridge.
FARA loved his ass. (or who was it?)

saturday was super-tight. tres fabulous.
JUNIE had to wake me up too early in the morning,
went over to her boyfriend (who's not in town)'s place.
but before we were there, JUNIE got me boost-boost.

and then she went to get chicken spaghetti bolognese.
but we both had no idea how to pronounce it the right way.
(i know, really dumb!) so i went to the guy and said,
"can i have chicken spaghetti bolo-WHAT."

those cheeky guys just made it all up into a good joke to laugh at.
ohh, so it's pronounced as "bolo-knees".
(that's what we were told!)

so we went over to JUNIE's boyfriends place.
nobody was home, we were waiting for baby-J to arrive
so i decided to do some karaoke. you won't even believe
what songs i sang. ..but oyeahh, it was so much fun.

then baby-J arrived, we watched some hindi dance videos,
and then we switched to THE ANT BULLY. it's quite a good catch.
we all loved it. and then came along camwhoring.
such a mad amount of photos, we all went crazy.
girls gone wild.

then poofed off to town, ERNIE came to meet us.
then we had drinks and brownes chocolate supashake.
shake it and it gets thicker. ah ah yummay yummay.

then the girls made me jump way too many times,
that i can still feel the ache right around my thighs.
don't ask why i was jumping like jack. (LOL)

and then JUNIE sleptover my place on sunday night.
damn, so much fun these days, i can't really keep up.
we went for eyebrow threading in the afternoon and
poor baby JUNIE was tearing. or shall i say, her face leaked.

JUNIE's first thread. she swore never to do it again.
me: "then make tattoo not pain huh?!"
J: "i don't know, i forgot the pain."
LOL. i love her many.

today was lot 1; with my laptop.
junie, safwan, boya, wan, carl, ajis & some others.
now i have nice spots of fingerprints on my screen. thanks carl. ha!
and JUNIE baby, thanks for everything today.
not forgetting, that bite of fish fillet.

anyhows, the HAM and UNUN (its the thing now)
are heading off to bed. but before that.

happy eighteenth, ernie.
eighteen or eighty, we'll be girlfriends
from now and for always, 'till eternity.

SAFWAN and me were the first to sing her a birthday
song on the dot, on the phone. the others were rather
too advanced. ha! nah, i don't do advanced wishes.
but maybe belated ones still! sugar dreams boogerfaces.
sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite, crawl into your
head and lay eggs in your brain. here comes your worst nightmare.

a girl like me..

2006-08-17T13:03:00.000+08:00

girls this ain't a dance flo'.
this the candy store.

i pop, i roll.
it's soft, i know.

laffy taffy i'm likin' it.
big ol`ass you shaykin' it.
close yo mouth & don't say shit.

you hoe can't even shayk no mo'.

linger..

2006-08-17T04:40:00.000+08:00

but i'm in so deep.
~~but you always really knew, i just wanna be with you.~~
it's never again what it had always seemed, goodnight.

goodbye.

2006-07-27T19:07:00.000+08:00

bye.love, nunu.

the cat outside my house..* & we didn't move on.

2006-04-25T15:51:00.000+08:00

we'll skip the goodbyes..*

which to bury, us or the hatchet?

have i told you how much i'm in love with furries?
well i was having lunch and this cat came right at my doorstep.
i think she needs a friend, so i finished off my food, sat right there
& played with her. i took my digital cam along, so yeah, kitty pictures for you.

she's all whitish and dark-brownish around the edges
of her ears, stripey tail, really beautiful baby blue eyes.
adorable, friendly and playful. i wish i could have kept her.

she jumped around to the string attached on my digicam.
then i patted her, she was twisting and turning around on my lap.
and then she fell asleep, aww.. that was really sweet, & i called her mimi.
i think she likes that name! (insert laughter) okay, hahaha..

x o x o

ohwells, LOVE? right.. *

2006-04-14T03:18:00.000+08:00

play me like i don't know..*

it's gonna hurt me, but i gotta go.

two thumbs up for "the producers", it's an awesome catch.
i love musicals, broadway dancers in diamonds and pearls.
and uma thurman's just hotness. i'll give it a four outta five.
well that's how i'll rate it, who cares if you think my rating sucks.

the cathay's good, great seats for one great movie.
oomph, my thursday. (despite the terrible left-eye that is)

talking about terrible, i went to visit the doctor this afternoon,
he gave me two different kindsa eyedrops. & if the sore continues,
at least by monday, i'm gonna have to go for a check-up again.
but nah, i think its getting better now after i dropped it in.

greatness, i'll leave out the sore for my weekends.
say goodbye, always teary eye. i hate you stupid.

okay, that aside. i'm somehow a little upset right now.
i guess at some point of time, i just find it hard to control myself.
i tend to feel things that aren't meant to be felt.
and i tend to say things that aren't meant to be said.

i hate my silly thoughts sometimes.
oh well, i wished i was that girl who never cared..
guess i cared too much that i wish i never gave a damn.
ahh,whatever.
i'll just shoosh myself now before i get carried away with my emotions.

as usual, it's late and i can't get to sleep.
i ain't really got any idea what my plans are for later.
dork wants to meet me, since he'll be somewhere around.
my old pal wants to hangout in town, or maybe i'll just parlay' with junie.
ah well, let's just see how things go. i'm cravin' my vanilla milkshake!! i miss ernie, fara and naddie too. ahh, i miss my girlfriends..

and so before i crap around with anything else, i'm tucking in.
if you love someone, don't waste a moment to show it,
because the moment might be gone forever before you even know it.(see, i told you i'd crap around)

the way he sits, the way he talks, the way he laughs,
the way he walks, the way he eats, the way he smiles, everything, it just seems so perfect to me..

when the person is what you think about the majority of the day.
and the very thought of that person leaving or cheating on you
makes you feel sick and extremely sad. when you think of that person
and never stop wishing that they're just by your side, you're in love..

goodnight sweet loves and lusts.

i'm sorry, it shouldn't have happened.
x o x o

In Loving Memory..* i love you, i need you.. but i... left you.

2006-04-12T21:09:00.000+08:00

in loving memory..*

i need you here, not just in my heart.

when you love someone, and you love them with your heart,
it never disappears when you're apart.
and when you love someone and you've done all you can do,
you set them free, and if that love was true,
when you love someone, it will all come back to you..
*
sometimes you love something so much,
that it hurts to leave it, but you must.
sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love.
and sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts.
but then just sometimes, you get it back and live happily ever after.
*
why do people have to lose things,to find out what they really mean?
*
when you said forever, you meant a few months.
when i said forever, i meant everyday until i died.
when you said always, you meant until you couldn't
handle it anymore. when i said always, i meant until time ended.
when you said you loved me, you meant i was no different from
any other girl. when i said i love you,
i meant i had never felt what i felt for you.
*
i wish i had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had.
but i can't because i know you won't come after me, and i guess that's what hurts the most.
*
i hate you and then i love you.
it's like i want to throw you off a cliff,
then rush to the bottom to catch you.
(one of my favourite*)
*
oh, i shouldn't care or wonder where and how you are.
but i can't hide this hurt inside my broken heart.
i'm fighting back emotions that i've never fought before,
'cause i'm not supposed to love you, not anymore.
*
even if my heart should call out your name in the rain,
even if these arms should want to embrace you again.
and even if i'm all cried out and no longer in pain,
i'll never fall in love with you that way again.
*
i could fill a thousand pages telling you how i feel,
and still you will never understand.
so now i leave without a sound,
except that of my heart shattering as it hits the ground.
*
the ones that you love the most, are usually the ones that hurt you the most. **when you love someone,
you say it out loud,
don't ever let the moment pass you by.**when you love someone, you show it.let them see it, and you let them feel it.
**
its true,why does it hurt, when i love you?*i love you, i need you,but i'm sorry it's over, i left you.*
much love.x o x o

beeen a looooong time*

2006-04-12T02:14:00.000+08:00

loosen up my buttons*

been a while since i last left my traces around.
i'm now that lazy bummer infected with sore eyes.
and surprisingly, ernie and me got infected at the same
time and on the same left eye. how genetically synchronized.
(as ernie would call it) sore eye's wack!

ahh, here's just a list of the days i had.

friday; town with the dork,
then chillax' at bernardo's bella luna studio.(ernie knows what we went through that night)but thankfully we're both safe together *phew.
saturday; awesome day out with naddie.
pastamania, eyecandies, psp, bootyshayking, boys, boys, boys.
& videos@thecathay then booze blast at midnight with naddie&aj.
sunday; girls day in at home.
monday; out with the ipod and my book.
tuesday; chillaxin' afternoon with the bestfriend, ernie.
vanilla milkshakes! & then watch mr. glenn kinkee with dinner.
night; a cheesy chillaxin' night out with carl..

oh it was all so good..

nah wells, its now time for my beauty sleep.
goodnight loves, stay tuned for more bimbotic rants.

we watched the full moon, and i remember you saw a falling star. i wished it was endless.

x o x o

hello, heartache.

2006-04-06T04:53:00.000+08:00

hello, goodbye..* oh why can't i be what you need..

hello there, dorks from my nightmare.ohhokay, i've been out most of the days.(no wait, all of the bloohday days)and i'm fully hooked up this week.

today was le incredible, ernie and nunu were gangsta lovin.didn't keep track of time and ended upback home late. and nowadays i don't really likereaching home late. weird, but its already like a habit, psshh..

ah, guess i better do something about that.and tomorrow, yessa to girlies crunkin`day out.with my dearest ERNIE & dear NADDIE.& we might just have a chaffeur to drive us aroundsince my friend is like so willing to do so.

ah yeah, we be booty poppin` doofs.shopping, camwhoring, ben&jerrys,and all that girly jazz thang..
friday will be, uhm.. hah. (ernie knows naddie knows..)& then saturday, chicks out again with ERNIE & JUNIE.this is like what i call, JENitals. Junie, Ernie, Nunie.lol, just messing with that, but oyeahh we'll be rockin`town!

& it has been a while since i last watched a movie.but i doubt there's like anything interesting to catch now.update me anyone? seems like i'm so out of this world, bleh.

inseparable, and i love her like that.
i'm deciding on the colour for my hair.either shades of brown or like reddish,with like highlights.. so any good choices?you know the drill, yaw.

hotness of the week.

ah cheeses, tell me he's hotness. richie sambora.(lead guitarist for bon jovi) but then again, it can'tbe anymore sweeter than this.

carl wheezer, jimmy neutron's bestfriend.episodes of jimmy neutron never gets me bored,and its always cracking my cheese up.oyeahh, ernie loves llamas!but carl's mine!! eh, uhm.*sticks tongue*

it's 4:48AM, and i can't sleep.(umm cheese, i'm like that bored ay)it's like i have insomnia or something.ah, i'm forcing myself to bedland, peace.

goodnight, one love.x o x o

do you love me, or do you not..*?

2006-04-02T04:49:00.000+08:00
i won't see you tonight..*
and while i'm gone everything will be alright.

another sleepless night, though i'm so tired.was surprisingly approached by two hot ladies in sexyblack tanktop&minis with their heels on at the esp.and they're from this SNAG magazine.

they got me into this MDSB thingymajiggers.most desired snag babe. & i had to follow them downfrom the esplanade mall to this SNAG booth outside DXO.goodie bag with voucher, DXO club membership and some photoshoot.

and umm, it's all cool.took the last train home, totally fagged.and sometimes, you just don't have to flaunt the factthat "i-have-a-boyfriend-to-kiss-and-hug-but-you-don't."if jealousy's the word you're looking for, try harder babe.but just keep reminding yourself, it won't work, hah.

tired, so very the tired.goodnight, sweat peas.(& that was sppos'd to be sweet)okay bye.x o x o

i'm not wishing, anymore?...*

2006-04-01T13:01:00.000+08:00
i won't look back..*

dear diary,too many things circling my head,but i guess these things are just better left unsaid.

this cut is on my heart.x o x o

dear heart, prepare to shatter.

2006-03-31T04:29:00.000+08:00
seize the day..*

i see my vision burn, i feel my memories fade with timebut i'm too young to worry, a melody, a memory, or just one picture.-seize the day; avenged sevenfold.

hello, lovers of my nightmare.been a pretty while since i last blogged.and i mean like really really blogged, and becausei've been quite distracted with stuffs around. oh well.

good news, my hair is growing.latest news, ernie's decided to cut her hair.and what's really new? fara snipped her hair short, real short!

well of course she looks hawt.okay well, hair tales aside for now.its friday and i'll be hanging out with my bunch.be around town/city hall, as usual. & it's black friday.

so, what if i never hold you, or kiss your lips again?so i never want to leave you and the memories for us to see,i beg don't leave me.

and so it was stay home thursday for me.my friends were surprised that i'm actually home.(wow, good girl today eh.) mmm, rrrrright.then i went down to northpoint with my brother,to get dinner for ourselves and the family.

just one meal today, and then i'lldecide to go on a hunger strike like gandhi.then katrina will be back in a coupla weeks time,we be bangin' this time fo'shizzle, & i miss her like cupcakes.

i make sure she gets me the nice lacylingeries and sweet scents from the phillipines.
so anyhows, its like 4:23AM & i'm ain't asleep, yet.later might be a long day, so i better get some rest.and this, is just seriously hawt please, period.

silence you lost me, no chance for one more day, i stand here alone,falling away from you, no chance to get back home..

goodnight, sweet loves.x o x o

autumns monologue*

2006-03-29T07:34:00.000+08:00

autumns monologue..*

oh why can't i be what you need?
a new improved version of me.
but I'm nothing so good no, i'm nothing..
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence, of love, and of sorrow,
i beg for just one more tomorrow..
where you'd hold me down,
fold me in deep deep deep in the heart of your sins.

i'd break in two over you..
i'd break in two and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life..
but you don't see me, you dont..

here i'm pinned between darkness and light,
bleached and blinded by these nights.
where i'm tossing and tortured till dawn by you,
visions of you, then you're gone.
the shock bleeds the red from my face,
when i hear someone's taken my place.
how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel?
when all, all that i did was for you...

i'd break in two over you..
i'd break in two and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life..
but you dont see me, you don't..

i'd break in two over you..
i'd break in two and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life..
but you don't see me, you don't..
i'd break in two over you, i'd break in two over you..
over you i'd break in two, i would break in two for you.
now you see me, now you don't. now you need me, now you don't.

x o x o

COW`mooooo*

2006-03-22T19:16:00.000+08:00

miracle morning`GREAT.

2006-03-21T13:12:00.000+08:00
hello miracle morning.

so we locked ourselves in your room.and we got lost in each other's eyes.he whispered in her ear & she'd laugh at his silly jokes,even if they were pointless. he'd hold her hand & not let go.

he had no idea how happy it made her. she'd rest her head on his shouder, close her eyes & listento their song while he kissed her forehead.

she memorized the touch of his lips.she didn't want to leave anytime soon.& they'd snuggle under the blanket and he'd hug her tightwhen she told him she was cold. it would be three in the morning,but they'd still be tangled in each other.
she knew he was something special.he is something special.

it was a miracle morning for me.all dreadful, sulking and stamping my feet on the floor.i felt like a little girl. still, we left house early for indonesia.and i was a few steps away, until my "miracle" flew upon.shan't elaborate it here. (insert evil laughter)

but i'll miss my mom, away for the whole week.and my dad, away during the weekends.
i want my mommy.. ='(i'll miss my parents.come home soon.(did i just smell/spell party?)

shopping, movie & milkshakes with the bestfriend yesterday.and we got ourselves pretty loop earrings at a fabolously cheap price.i'll be heading out again today, i need to get mooooooore stuffs.i got a whole chunk and junk of them on my shopping list.ah, i miss my boyfriend.

and this silence strips me bare, and your body pins me down.i've never been so scared to breathe, afraid to make a sound.but all i know, is you'll never let me go.kick and scream, and bite, and bleed, and make believe it's all a dream.bleed for you - hidden in plain view.x o x o

L.O.V.E

2006-03-19T15:02:00.000+08:00

you're tugging at my heart strings.

the way she laughs, the way she sleeps,
the way she tries to please you, the way she looks at you,
and the way she loves you just like no other..

always remember that, she can always walk up and away,
getting someone else who can love her so much more.so much more than how she knows you do.

for all you know, there is someone out there wooing her,
but she is rejecting what might be a perfect love for her.

there could be someone else out there, who is willing to love her,
more than how you are loving her, fulfilling her every need and love her as much as she's loving you.

humans with their guilty conscience.
when you are holding her today, and then you cheat on her,
hugging and kissing another, then you run back to her and you
do just the same thing, you hug her then you kiss her, but this
time you only see LOVE when you look into her eyes, only in her eyes.
how does it feel to know you broke her heart in a hush.

she's the one who loves you unconditionally,
who loves you for who you are. not because you're good-looking, not for the dollar bills, not because you buy her things.
she just really loves you.

your every touch, your every word, everything about you.

appreciate her, treasure her.
never ever break her fragile heart.
you'll never know, that she's the only one who
can love you that very special way where no one else can.

you'll never want to feel the regret of letting her go.
someone whom you can never find the same ever again.so love her, and never let her go.

just something i got on the internet.good afternoon, it's raining heavily.
i wanna get soaked.
x o x o

feelin`sleepy. orchard parade hotel-*

2006-03-19T12:08:00.000+08:00

vanilla milkshakes & him, Y

orchard parade hotel with acot, the bestfriend and my boyfriend was definitely awesome.
i'm loving them to bits and cheese crackers.

and we both made a hot cuppa milk tea together, i wonder who's tea tastes better, mmhmm..

recipe for my best hot cuppa milk tea
a tea sachetscalding hot waterabout two creamerslots and lots of sugarsnuggles, hugs & kisses from him& with carl robert beside me, it just makes the hot cuppa tea all sugar sweetness baby.

i'm craving vanilla milkshake.
x o x o

carl&nurul.

2006-03-17T03:43:00.000+08:00

goodnight, sweet love.

x o x o

.:THATCHIQA:.

2006-03-15T15:45:00.000+08:00
mmhmm..well okay, just something simple.
nothing fancy for now. so stay tuned loves.
i'm cravin' vanilla milkshakes.x o x o

THEsuns&wayne'sCAR. ernie. LOT1withSAFWAN&carl*

2006-03-07T02:34:00.000+08:00

ernie looks really adorable here.
both of us in wayne's car, [brag] drummer of the suns. [/brag]
he picked us up at the train station near ernie's place, and then headed
off the causeway point to get their movie tickets. didn't catch it with
them since i planned to meet up with the friends at lot 1.

ernie and me were camwhoring in the car, and just couldn't stop
giggling and laughing to our silly jokes. and since we both didn't
eat in an appropriate manner earlier in the afternoon, the mother of all tummy aches struck us. ouch.

went down to mos burger with them, wayne bought us drinks
and those frozen strawberries i wanted. then just talked, and talked
till we didn't realize their movie was already starting.

and i was telling wayne about the minah i had a tiff with at cineleisure.
about how silly that doofus can really get, (so typical). staring head to toe.
all that "i-walk-behind-you-and-hit-your-back-cus-i-ain't-satisfied" thang.
she did that like about, 4-5 times? i noticed but chose to ignore that beef.

but then she got on MY VERY LAST NERVE. that i just had to kick her legs
the moment she made an attempt to hit my back again with her disgusting
FAT ASS. (note: not big/sexy but FUGLY kinda FAT arse)
she even went out and brought her boyfriend in to "defend" her.

and you know what? he didn't even seem to bother.
what's all that big fuss about man? but it was sweet, because Carl was right there to defend me, awww.. hah.

she was just wasting her time walking here and there to
hit my back on purpose, seeking attention from me that is.
and please, i ain't a piece of log that you can bump your fugly fat ass on.
she got me really trippin' that i just had to kick her elephant legs..
I WAS REALLY MAD, like seriously annoyed.
but cheeses, i cooled down that easily right after. cheeeeeeesy peeeesy!

then she got mad of course, fugly typa`mad.& started blurting out typical malay vulgars at me.
i rather not sink to her level and do the same, so i chose to ignore.
so typical of those creatures. they ain't happy with you and start to pork
around like silly mofos' thinking you're sooo intimidated by them. girl, please.

all that aside, because it's already annoying the cheese out of me.
back to the story, ernie&wayne went to catch their movie,
and then i headed down to choa chu kang, met up with safwan.
was walking around, recording silly voices on his cellphone while
waiting for mister carl robert to arrive.

then as usual, slacked around `the lovin' it.
played some funny song words game.
rohaizad was supposed to like meet us, but he was really late.
so after a few hours of plain chilling out, all went back home.

i'm feeling kinda sleepy right now.
and i've got some job briefing tomorrow since i'll be
working with ernie from this thursday to sunday.
just a temporary job offer we got, for some thingy at Suntec City.

then late-night friday, safwan and carl asked me along to some ktv with
a whole bunch of friends.. been ages since i've been karaoke-ing.
well so i might be going, then again continue work on saturday morning.
psshhh.. my whole week's gonna be packed and though it haven't really
started, it's already making me feel.. really really tired.

i'm already missing princess fara, supposed to be meeting her soon.
and catch up on A WHOLE CHUNK of stuffs. we'll find the day babe!
and of course, i'm missing ernie's macaroni too. i shall make her cook
for me tomorrow since i'm heading over to her place at twelve.

had a good time with ernie&wayne-the-suns.
the straight ride from yishun to woodlands was fun.
and hanging out with my best pals..
the night breeze got us shivering cold!

so i'll blog again soon.
my eyes are really heavy now.

it's just blissful when i'm right in your arms.
goodnight walligators. i'm so tired and sleepy.
x o x o

Final Destination 3 With CARL*...

2006-03-05T12:37:00.000+08:00

the picture of carl&me on our 4th month.
i find it really adorable, lah..

was tossing in bed this morning when carl called,
well, to wake me up of course. hung around in my room,
before heading for my shower and then after, we went out.
plans to watch final destination 3, and finally after long..

afternoon show at the marina square golden village.
OMG, their heads really splattered like crushed watermelons.
i would say it's a three outta five, ernie rated it that way too.
though i ain't really satisfied with the ending, but pshh..
shan't spoil it for those who haven't watched. so go watch!

dinner at the m'square foodcourt, black pepper chicken baked rice.
carl had his favourite saba fish. & we just spent the whole time talking.
and then to the esplanade, hung out.. just sitting, wiggling and yes, talking..
then we saw the ice-cream man floating in the sky after carl actually
saw a shooting star. "make a wish.."

spent a couple of hours there, and how we felt time passed so quickly.
boarded the train back home, and just when i felt things were going on
pretty well that night, something else just had to spoil a tad-bit of my mood.

just someone happened to bump into the both of us, particularly carl.
and the first phrase that was blurted out, (in typical malay of course);
"changed girlfriend again?" of course she said it clearly to make sure i
heard it all. gosh, i was definitely right smack infront of her.
and with her bitch of a look, i smiled in friendliness, right.. and i wonder how some of you girls would feel,if you happen to be in my position that is.becus' that is seriously rude.

some people just got to learn some basic manners.
i mean, that's really rude don't you think so?
how obvious it is that her phrase was meant for me to hear it.
and feel really insulted of course. & the whole time carl and me
were standing against the glass panel, having our good time,
i saw through the reflection that she was just staring our way.

carl's right, she's just a bitch anyway.
typicals like that are seriously advised to take basic manners classes.
i mean, no offence. i smiled and that's no reason for her to be bitchified.
all that aside, before i start to rant more. just be nice, and i will too.

so, i had a great time with carl. well, it was nice although i felt
that time was going a little too fast. and yes, i hope none of you
jump into conclusions, whatever that means.

i'm feeling a little hungry now, that's cool.
because i'm supposed to sorta put on a little more weight.
i have no idea what's in the kitchen for me to pig out on.
i might just be having instant noodles cus' it's been such
a looooong time since i had one, with egg of course. mmm..

anyhows, i'm supposed to call safwan right now.
and i'll be on my way to the instant noodles.
blog again soon.

later walligator.
and lots of love.
x o x o

crap*

2006-03-04T23:49:00.000+08:00
cause' now that it feels like,
it's far from what it was like..
that when our time has finally come to pass,somethings last, somethings always last.we laugh we cry, and all the while we felt so alive.it was you and me.
endless summer.

computer's gonna die* rest in chips baby..

2006-02-27T01:05:00.000+08:00
rest in chips, baby*

goodbye, and sad to say.
my computer will be leaving me soon.
it's down on its deathbed right now.
waiting for the time to its one last breath.
and then, poof* goodbye baby.

5 years with you, its quite a fucking long time.
the memories i shared in you, endless pictures
taking up space, songs all kind of songs, games,
remember the time i haven't had internet broadband,
i shoved the phone line in one of your gaps for connectivity,
remember the time you were sick, i didn't get to utilize you
for months, i knew i missed you that's why i called the doctor to fix you.

my pictures are stucked on your face baby,
there's a nemo sticker and heart shapes too.
there's alot of memories inside of you, sometimes you
would get upset with me, and just die on me.

sometimes you really get on my very last nerve,
with all the stupid silly ads and pop-ups.
you've been drinking too much huh. that explains the
over excessive of pop-up puking. and you haven't been
practising safe sex, no wonder some virus affected you.

baby, how could you do this to me.
you know i need you everyday. you're the only thing
i never ever fail to touch each and every single day.
your presence has given alot of beauty in my life.

you have always been there for me.
and i have never failed to turn you on. yes, turn you on.
sometimes its hard for me to get to sleep, because i always
want to be with you. you're my best entertainment.
and i always want to touch you.

it's sad, that i'm going to live without you, anymore.
i have alot to say, but i hope all these explains it.
i won't get to see you on my desktop soon everyday.
you won't be around, and i know i'm gonna miss you.
i'm gonna miss you badly, baby.

i know that i can't live without you.
well, maybe i'm gonna get a new partner soon.
a new look. a new name. a new everything.
not like some infected diseased sick bastard like you.

ah, no matter what, i'll still be around until the day
you die. and you'll be gone. i'm sorry if i can't give
you the best funeral ever. because i might just sell
you off to the karang guni man.

but just keep this in mind, i have loved you.
and thank you, for everything. EVERYTHING.

so sad you'll be leaving me.
rest in microchips, baby.

x o x o
and to the real baby, i love you too.

far away* (nickelback) with you...

2006-02-24T11:31:00.000+08:00
last chance, for one last dance*

i love you, i have loved you all along..
and i miss you, been far away for far too long..
i keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go..
stop breathing if, i don't see you anymore..

aww, the song's just so lovely. far away by nickelback.
fara and me was in love with that song when we heard
it on the radio, and just kept singing to it although at that
point of time we still weren't sure of the title. cheesy girls.

i woke up surprisingly early this morning, no idea why.
watched peter pan on hbo, and tinkerbell's really cute.
but i can imagine myself being the tinkerbell of the movie.
omg, *puke-puke* i think it's the early morning flattering.

yesterday was cheezin'. stayed at home the whole day,
couldn't find anything to do for myself so just sat on my
deathseat (you might see that on my msn nick), butts glued
and stuck to the computer the whole time. i didn't even get
anything to eat for myself except for one pathetic egg.
(and no i didn't eat the fugly fish, it was gone before i knew it)

was on the phone with carl last night before he went to sleep,
then talked to fara after she's said to be walking aimlessly
around her house (hahaha!), and then i was going to bed
when these two little doofies decided we chatted on the phone.
so my plan to turn in early backfired and i had to call safwan
since he was sleeping over at ijad's. i was on loudspeaker and i
had to entertain their cheeses the whole night.

they were like karaoke-ing away, recording all our voices,
singing to emo songs. and they decided to call me huda.
oh crap. and we cheesed about the funniest things ever.
they were trying to make me feel terrified by telling me
some crap ghost stories. duh, but it was fun.
and then i decided to fall back to dreamland.

i still haven't got my usb cable that's left at ernie's.
well maybe i'll be dropping by later, and might just
be around town (maybe) 'cus i still feel lazy to go out though.

and momsie left early this morning, there was no egg
left in the kitchen, decided to bounce off to the mama shop
to get bread and egg but the mama said, bread haven't come yet darling.
so i decided to just get myself sardine puffs and chocolate milk.
mmmm, sedap. and i'm so full already. i wonder if this' gon`be my
first and last meal of the day, but something tells me it is, heh.

i'll be spring-cleaning my room today, (i did a little yesterday).
and yes this time its gon`be really spring-cleaning. if you notice
that's the secret-code me and fara used. but plees, there ain't any
hunk in my room. except for valentino rossi on the wall, hah.
& well the only real hunk that's been in my room is carl himself. (hahaha)

so anyway, hunks aside. now i've got more things on my shopping list.
and i make sure i strike 'em off one by one, before it gets much more.
and with the fact that me and fara got into mini toons the other day,
i find myself fascinated with their picture frames, cushions and pen holders.
it's all so fluffy pinky pink pink. and this reminds me of MY PINK CAR.

i'm sure carl knows about that because i've been telling him how
i'm gon`be decorating the interior of my car. and miss fara knows
this too. we'll both be taking our drivers liscense together, that is
after we pass our theory. oww, i can't wait. then i'll be pickin' up
my bestgirlpals like ernie, me closey friends and me beebee*, bouncin'
round the streets, be bangin' loud glamorous muzik,
side by side to fara's mobil.
so just hop into my ride cheezes!

such a dreamgirl i am.
and a tinge of drama queen* (you'll see this in my nick too!)
aww, i miss watching confessions of a teenage drama queen with ernie.
this life just crumbles down in a whole pile of mess,
when my girlfriends all ain't here with me by my side!

ok well, enough with the drama.
i'm off to have my shower, and waiting for some idiot to call
since i'm asked to be out in town. and just do a tad bit of
spring cleaning before leaving the house later.

my mom has been nagging at me,
for the past seventeen years of my life.
gah. i think i'm beginning to get really used to it already.
that i just jumped around in the toilet before having my bath yest.
you can call me crazy and deranged, because i think i am. hahahaha!

and fara, you and i know what happened last night.
switch on, switch off.. we're both ON now. *huggs.
and ernie, i know i still owe you your prata darling! mwah.
so i'll blog again. (omgsh it just started to rain)
later walligator. lots of love and raindrops.

hold on to me and, never let me go.
x o x o

giving it all away*

2006-02-23T20:36:00.000+08:00
i may be sweet, but i'm still on the vine*
just look a little closer, you might find that it's not the end.

i'm blogging again because i'm so bored. halou, boredom nation.
i just had my bath a while ago (it's 7:46PM). feeling so fresh, so fine.
i haven't eaten for the whole day. makes up for the two meals i had
yesterday, beef fried rice lunch and chocolate sunday french fries dinner.

ashlee simpson's on my playlist. i swear i'm addicted to her right now.
her songs are just, gosh. momsie cooked some fugly fish for dinner.
i don't think i'll eat it though. i was feeling very hungry this afternoon,
but the hunger's already gone for now. maybe i'll just ring up mcdonald's
delivery later for supper. i'll see about that. if i get hungry again that is.

anyhows, just some replies to my tags.
the tee's from zara. i loooove it man.
and no i didn't rebond my hair babe.
ahem, my boyfriend doesn't want me to.
heh, right.. well yeah i didn't rebond it and not planning to.

well actually i rebonded it like three years ago,
but i've cut it all short and stuffs. so yes, my hair is
naturally straight and it can get pretty wavy sometimes.
fara's hair is rebonded and it's like so smooth and nice.
ernie's hair is naturally very straight. she's born with perfect hair.
yes yes, enough about hair. (hair tips a few paragraphs below)

to all you curious ones, about the silly halijah-the-loser issue,
i seriously couldn't be bothered. i mean, when that name's spitted out,
we all know who she is, don't we? i mean, who's she trying to kid?
and how dumb, sucking up to me most of the time. i don't care.

living a life full of copying and pasting.
i think she was once a photocopying machine in her past life.

and yes, i was told to file a police report for her plagiarism.
and i will. the neighbourhood police post is just around the hood.
oh yes, whatever she says about me in her trash, only fools believe.
whatever that tickles her fancy yes? whatever that makes her happy.

still, we all know "she blogs" so perfectly similar, like me.
oh wellos. all that silly-majigglies aside.

it's friday tomorrow, i haven't really plan anything yet.
i woke up at exactly one, this afternoon. i wonder what time
i'll be turning in tonight or will be waking up tomorrow.
and gosh, my tummy is playing the orchestra right now.

anyhows, here are just some tips for your hair.
after having your shower, leave it to dry naturally.
i mean, of course just dry it up a little and not leave
water trickling down your floor. sit in your room,
switch on your fan, drape a towel around yourself
(that depends if you haven't put on clothes)
you won't want your little brother or whoever
to run in and watch you in the nude like that.

so the thing is, let your hair dry naturally.
use your fingers as a comb, and bristle through your tresses.
and refrain from using a comb because since your hair is wet,
it might just break your hair. it's not hairthy. one more thang,
don't bother using a towel and frizzle it dry. it will leave your
hair all frizzed up when its dry and when you're out in the sun.

and for herbal essences lovers like me,
don't forget to condition your hair. it's totally essential.
because the shampoo itself would leave your hair dry
so better keep it all moisturized. you won't want to look like
a frizzball with a bird on your head thinking its laying eggs on its nest.

so when your hair is almost dry, it will feel silky smooth,
shiny and you'll have that shampoo smelling hair for yourself.
and even if its totally dry, using the conditioner will still keep
your hair all moisturized. cheers to beautiful girly hair.

and guys, when a girl twirls her hair while you're noticing,
it means they're interested in you. they're flirting with you dude.

all that hairy-bamboozle aside for now.
to bloghopper, i ain't sure why it gets stuck here and there.
actually i don't face it at all. hmm.. but just update me if
it still does get stuck around and stuffs. thanks you.

okay, that's it. my tummy's officially playing its drums.
i'm off to the kitchen for some i'm-forced-to dinner.
another entry late tonight! just be on the lookout.

lots of love and shampoo smelling hair.
later walligator.
x o x o

can't wait for wiggy'wed&tannin'thurs*

2006-02-23T13:59:00.000+08:00
fara and nunu feat. schnappi schnap*

yesterday, a whole day of cheezin' GIRLfun.
met up with princess fara* sooo early, the earliest
we've ever met to head down orchard road.
walked around and decided to have our lunch at
far east plaza. she had honeydew chicken noodle
and i had the sambal beef fried rice. couldn't finish it.

after lunch, we walked around almost every single part of town.
here and there, everywhere. hopped on from one mall to another.
window-shopped, "spring-cleaned" that was the term fara and me
used for 'cute hot hunks alert!'. went into a whole lot of toilets in
the different shopping malls and compare which ones better.

then we head down to galleria, and played with a duck!
tried on perfumes, messed around and talked about stuffs.
and from where we were, we walked and talked and jiggled
and wiggled towards heeren and then plaza singapura.

again we visited their toilets, bumped into a couple of
friends, looked for hair-bands and at last decided to
hop into carrefour and get JUICES. i got cranberry juice
and fara got herself apple mix aloe-vera juice. mmm, sedap!

then again, our journey didn't stop. but it was getting
scorching hot back then in dhoby ghaut, so we decided
to take a straight bus to suntec city mall. and we did.

all the time we couldn't stop talking and yapping
and yakkering away. talking about almost anything
we were thinking of. then we walked around suntec city,
finally went to get fara's hair-band at mini toons, then
went on to coffee bean for a cup of ice. and tadaaa*
we girls were at it again. walking, talking, singing,
yakkering away.. walked through the millenia,
"stupid mannekins, sexy bras, chocolate booths,
jumping on the beds.." you know i know fara.

and then we headed towards marina square.
passed the kenko store and was like, memories!!
haha, one of the first times we met each other,
but had never really spoken.

walked into the marina square, got a little tired,
but we still window shopped and tried on stripey
clothes together. it was soooo crazily fun.
then we went down to mcdonalds, just sat around
and took pictures on the digicam.

and then we bumped into fara's poly friends "hi, bye!"
and the both of us pranced down to the MERLION.
our bestest memories there. the good old days..
so we were quite down to an emo mode, BUT!
the silly merlion puked out its bits on us when the
wind blew our way. "omg!! we'll be smelling of FISHES!!"

we sat around, took pictures, talked about those days
we were there, memories memories memories..
looked at teeny-tiny fishes swimming around,
and smelly bumboats, and the calmy river,
splishing-splashing of waves, funny tourists..

and there came SCHNAPPI!!
sh-schnappi, sh-schnappi, schnappi schnappi, schnap!
we talked, and jumped, and ran, and sang,
and danced, and pranced around..
the fun we had was totally unexplainable.

and then i started craving for Gelare's waffles.
so we walked back to citylink, but some one had
to adjust her cute little panties, and to the toilet we went!

then i changed my mind, no more gelare waffles.
let's have some other desserts. walked back to
marina square..was walking and deciding what
to have for ourselves, then SCHNAPPI decided for us.

schnappi makes good choices.
we went to mcdonalds, i had fries with chocolate sundae
and fara wanted the berrynice yoghurt with french fries
but schnappi said, NO! MCFLURRY. and she did. hahaha.

sat, talked talked talked, gosh we talked a whole lot.
and ate, slurped on our ice-creams and crunched on our fries.

then later, we went back to the esplanade and sat by the bay.
that was the most interesting part..
WE COULDN'T STOP TALKING.
from him, to him, to her, to us, to love, to life, to chicken,
to schnappi, to God, to stars, to religion, to confusion, et cetera..
omaagoose* it was a whole load of chunk we talked about.
total non-stop yakkering away. one topic leads us to another.

and our brains got a little worked up.
we went a little frustrated 'till both our legs
had, ANTIES (me and ernie call it).. that crampy
feeling in your leg. fara was asking me, how do we
call that "semut-semut" in our leg. ANTIES i said. hahaha.

we both just couldn't stop talking..
and then got really thirsty, went to get a drink
and walked back to the station, bounced back and
took the train home.. aww what a beautiful day with fara.

and i know some of you must be yawning away after
reading this. because i'm sure it's too long an entry.
and i elaborated on almost every part. LOL.

but still, i had the best day ever with fara.
and how we hope ernie was there with us too.
there's a lot like too much for me to elaborate
more on everything else that happened yesterday.
but you get my drift, IT WAS FABOLOUS.

and of course, there's more to come!
it's going to be our wiggly wednesday and tanning thursday
next week. wednesday: DANCE, DANCE! thursday: TANNING!
goshhhh.. fabolous majiggielous girlylous days ahead..
i can so feel it in my bones! and i so can't wait.

FUNS with you FARA!
and GIRLYPOWER.
schnappi schnappi schnap!

and well yes, y'alls might be thinking.
pictures? the visuals will be posted most probably
tonight or tomorrow. because i realized yesterday that
my usb cable's left at ernie's place. ngehehehe.
the only pictures available are from fara's cellphone.

well, this entry has been sufficiently long.
i'll blog again this evening when i'm bored.
be staying at home today, and surprisingly
i slept too early last night that i received alot of calls
from my "i-didn't-know-she's-already-asleep" friends.

at one time, i was already falling back to dreamland and
someone! just had to call and disturb my sleeeep!
i was like "HALOU!!!"
person: "hey, what are you doing?"
me: "SLEEEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!"
person: "oh okay, okay sorry sorry you go to sleep okay,
go to sleep k, gdnite."
me: "BYE!"

and the last one i received was at 1:30AM from fara,
i was a little pissed to hear the phone ring.. but then
after hearing cute leg princess' voice, i smooooved down.
hahahahaha. be thankful for that fara! lol, just messing.

okay, okay.
i'm off to ransack the kitchen for fruit juices.
carl gave me this banana juice recipe. i think i should try it.
and if i'm poisoned and i die, i know who to haunt. ahem*
later walligator.

x o x o

myspace and lots of chats*

2006-02-22T02:09:00.000+08:00
the good intentions*

hater tags, whatever crap tags, this that shiznats,
anything that has got to do with it, will be deleted off.
so don't bother honey, you're just wasting your time.
as it is, i'm proud enough to know that my blog has
always been YOUR source of entertainment, haters.
whatever you call them.

it's 2:13AM, i'm blogging of boredom.
just checking out myspace, and chatting with some
friends who happens to be alive at this hour. and some
of them studying since they've got some poly exams later.
so good luck to my friends who'll be sitting for their exams.

the day went fine, i headed over to my bestfriend's place.
bought chicken chucklet and a huge bottle of green tea.
watched the confessions of a teenage drama queen while
munching and crunching to our yummy dinner. oww..

Ernie and me can never have enough of chic flicks.
after confessions, we watched mean girls.
as always, our top favourite girly movie.

so we both just chilled around, painted our nails,
GIRLS! and nail polishes. sat around the mattress
and talked about stuffs. it was nice hanging out with my babe.
love you Ernie* see you again soon, with a prata coming your way.

headed back home, and had some rest when carl called me.
then i called Fara, talked to her about a lot of stuffs. gah, watevs.
still fabolously, we'll both be meeting tomorrow, yeehaws!
planned some stuffs with her, and just can't wait to see her
tomorrow. again, been quite some time since we both hung
out with only just the two of us. so tomorrow it will be.
i guess we'll both be eyeing for hot hunks down the road.
LOL. right..

aww, i love my girlfriends..
they make me the happiest chic on earth and any
girly would be bless'd to have girlfriends like them.
thank God that bless'd girl is me. LOVE you girlfriends*

anyhows, i'm just feeling kinda sleepy right now.
will be meeting Fara at twelve tomorrow.
so i guess it's time for my sugar dreams.

"SALVAGE IT* or SCRAP IT*" entry will be up soon.
(and oh, this reminds me of the create a blogskin entry
that i promised some of you. i decided not to publish it in
my blog, and if you are really interested, please inform me
and i'll send you the details through e-mail.)
because it helps if i know who you are and who
i'll be sharing the tips with. thanks.

later walligator and goodnight loves.
~~ps: the perfect type for me, is you.~~
x o x o

away from the sun*

2006-02-21T12:22:00.000+08:00
couch with you*

good af'tnoon all you big red apples.
i was on my bed, and the moment my eyes opened,
i looked at the clock and it was exactly twelve.

supposedly to wake up at ten, get breakfast and head
to ernie's place. but the angel of sleep wants me to have
more of dreamland, and gosh, i had sucha weird dream last night.
ok, shan't elaborate it here of course.

ernie was at my place last night after she got back from town,
i was supposed to go along, but i felt really tired and lazy last night
so i decided to head back home and have plenty of rest for myself.

so ernie came over, she used her laptop while i was on my pc.
then her connection got a little screwed so i gave her mine
and started hogging on the phone with carl. LB, LB, LB.. ahem*

i miss my girlfriends. dear ernie and that cute leg princess.
they're just the sweetener to my days. can't wait to see them again.

and oh, for this whole week, i'll be a good girl and stay at home.
planning to get plenty of rest for myself and then blast off on the
weekends. i'm sick and tired of going out and feeling all restless.
i've been having lack of sleep and good rest for myself so it's
essential i have it now for this whole week since i've got no plans.

as impossible as you might think, i'm still staying at home.

my brother's getting married in about five months time.
how fast time flies. i can't wait to see him get married.
wooopee* okay, i'm off to make my bed.

later walligator.
ps: i miss you and your cute ass.
x o x o

at ernie's place, wind blowin`sexaye*

2006-02-20T15:48:00.000+08:00
whatever, whatever.

i'm here at ernie's place, she's still asleep.
and it's already 3:49PM. so, WAKE UP ERNIE!!
i'm waiting for safwan to come over, he's on his way now
from school that is. then we'll all be heading off to somewhere in town.

oh, i helped ernie do some cleaning today while she's asleep.
i cleaned the kitchen, sweeped the floor, washed the dishes,
this that shiznat, because i know her mom would be screaming
out loud when she gets back and see the house in a mess.
like, "OH MY GOSH."

yesterday was food-a-licious. ernie and me ate whole loads.
we were starving the night before, there was no gas in the kitchen
and we couldn't cook shit. went to the hotel dinner with ernie, met up
with my aunties and cousins and niece. it's all GIRLS.

we ate way too much. pasta, drumlets, lamb, omelette, fishball, samosa
and just so much more. then we had BREAD AND BUTTER PUDDING,
like oh my gosh it totally creaaaamed me. so sweet and buttery.
then we had fruits topped with whipped cream. had sushi.
ah! a whole range of delicacies. ate till we got tummy aches.
and we got really full that we didn't really finish up the plates.

but the best i had was the creamy mushroom pasta,
and of course, bread and butter pudding. i love it.
ok, enough about food, i'm feeling quite a little hungry now.
might be smoking up the pan later. let's see what's there to sizzle.

SATURDAY was fine, a day's out with ernie, sara, raz.
then we met up with han. bumped into people around,
and i'm sure some silly informers who spotted me too.

walked around town, dinner was all on han.
then he went off, we met a couple of ernie's soggy friends. hahaha.
hung around, headed to the esplanade, made silly videos and took
silly pictures while in the bus. it was awesome with the whole lot.
then sara met up with her blind date. everything was flowing through the night.

i felt a little sick, terrible terrible cramps although aunt flow just departed.
took the train back home with ernie, and just minutes after we left the station,
i puked out the whole chunk of fries. eeew. you can imagine the disgust.

ok all that aside.
i'm going to wake ernie up soon,
if she doesn't want to open her eyes,
i'll just take a bowl of water and splish splash it all on her.
just messing ernie* if you're reading this now. but really, i was
going to do it. hahahahaha. kidding.

i miss the little cute leg princess. *cough cough.
did i just say cute leg princess? eew.
haha, i miss fara. it was her four months anniversary
with her little froggy boy on saturday. was supposed to meet
her but plans changed and stuffs. MISS U FARA!

okay, safwan just arrived.
i'm going to entertain him right now.
blog again soon. later wallitator.

x o x o

i know you turned back*

2006-02-17T16:25:00.000+08:00

when the sun came up, we were sleeping in
sunk inside our blankets, sprawled across the bed..
we're glad for what we've got,
done with what we've lost.

i know you turned back.

i'm bored again, and it has began to drizzle outside.the momsie's baking, and we're both heading out later.supposed to meet razali, and head down to westspringbut i'm all lazy and i rather not go there.

straylight run's on my playlist, just nice fora snuggly cold afternoon, with the pleasant whiff of momsie's baking. gah, i wish i had a pet to play with.at least it'll chase the boredom away. right..

i'm a little excited for the weekends, which is meetingmy bestfriends again, aw i just love them. speaking of that,i made an interesting discovery a few days back. really cool.

i actually met someone who can bend his thumb,and fingers just like mine. and that person happens tohave a lot of similarities with me.. fascinating!ahem* well fara and ernie should know what i'm blabbing about.

on another note, i'm kinda excited for sunday.
also because the dinner i'm having at the Holiday Inn.
i'm actually looking forward to the oysters.. oow aphrodisiac.and hopefully, my favourite bread and butter pudding. aaah.
then if everything else is all well planned and stuffs,
i'll be meeting up with mister hakim. and maybe i cango shop for some stuffs with him. there's quite a numberof things that i need to get for myself. like, a new set of lingerie.
hahaha, just messing. well, we'll see how the sunday goes.
and right now, i can just see the dark grey skies around.its pouring soon, and here i'll be spending a rainy afternoonat home, i'll be turning to the television later and be a couchpotato 'till the evening, then heading out with momsie.

was chatting with some friends just now, and Hana alerted me about something, this annoying doofus who's at it again."miss-i'll-never-get-enough-of-plagiarizing."
and "it's-not-the-first-nor-the-second-nor-the-third. "
(yes, links on both)seriously, it's so sickening that she keeps copying&pasting
my entries and my archives. and i bet not only mine too.
from the blogs all over the world. gosh, shameless isn't she.

i've closed one eye, but now i'm warning all you people again.
just lookout for 'i-don't-know-how-to-blog' people who onlygoes around other people's site and simply CTRL+C, CTRL+V.
even after much attempts of apologizing and desperately sendingfriendster messages and emails to ME so i'd help her tell the people around that she's learnt her lesson. bull.

yeah, just watch out for her.
you might just see your entries on her blog one unfortunate day.maybe one kind soul would make her realize that people
are still watching her filthy tricks. 'nuff said.
and thanks Hana for reminding.

i'll be a couch potato for now,
and i'm already missing my girlfriends so fast.
and uhm, missing someone too.*
so yeah, blog again soon.

later walligator.
x o x o

just an entry*

2006-02-17T11:07:00.000+08:00
i won't let time erase*
(yesterday's entry that i only got to publish today)

as usual, blogging when i'm bored in the midnight.
i have quite a number of entries that i saved as draft.
i think because i felt like i rather kept it all to myself.

chatting with fara, ernie, sufyan, and hakim has just gone to bed.
i'm heading off to bed soon too, so just a quick entry before
i fall back to dreamland.. i'm again listening to destiny's child
brown eyes, it's serenading me to sleep.
i know that he loves me 'coz he told me so,
i know that he loves me 'coz his feelings show.

and he's missing me, when he's not kissing me..

i'm not sleeping over at ernie's today, since i miss my parents
both so much. so i decided to hop on home and fade the misses.
felt so good after seeing the momsie today, and it just gets better
to see her in such a good mood. now i'm already missing ernie.

today went awesome, spent the whole evening with raz, fara and fir.
chilled around at fara's place, played around with her laptop,
painted our nails, chit-chatted around, drank, ate, just basically
enjoying our time there. then they played UNO, at last we had
like pillow fights. gosh, i love pillow fights. also, my sore throat.
i don't really know if it's getting better or worse, but everyone
just had to laugh at my voice just now. like i said, i'm like a cute toad.
and you people should see the way ernie imitates me with that
"i-have-a-freaking-sore-throat" look. hilarious!

and suddenly i just i feel like jumping on my bed now and shake
my thang to bootylicious muzik, but i won't wanna wake my
parents up. so i better not. if i'm at ernie's now, we would
both be laughing our asses off because ernie will be in her
facial mask and telling me to stop making her laugh or
her mask will get ruined. sleepovers are such fun!
especially sleeping over with your best girlfriends.

the momsie made chicken rice today, but sadly i ain't
eating it. just have no appetite. though i can feel
that my tummy is empty, nah uh. not eating.
wait, i heard it's not good to sleep with an empty stomach.

anyhows, i had so much fun with them today.
and i'm sure ernie had as much fun with mister alfonso.
yepperdoos* meeting ernie and raz again tomorrow.
and hopefully meeting princess fara again soon.
need to catch up on a lot of things. and un-mess ourselves.
you know i know fara. ahem*.. and please, you don't
have a cute leg. AT ALL! just messing..

my little cousin, khaliesah called me a few hours back.
reminded me of the "LADIES ONLY" dinner at the Holiday Inn.
celebrating my aunt's birthday this sunday. i have no idea what
time though and also because i might be meeting Hakim..

hopefully things go as smoothly planned on sunday.
and talks about sunday, i have no idea what's in for saturday.
should i just try keeping my butt glued at home this time?

okay, some MAT just told me some of my entries are too long
for him to read. ok i'm improving on it abang.. HAHAHA, right..
i think he knows who he is, he should know! we're both bored.
and boredom leads to talking crap.

to ikin: link for SINETRON DIA Spoilers.
that's the link i went to, but i ain't sure
if the link is still working now. but you can try.
the last time i checked, it didn't load.

anyhoogies, i'll be heading to bed soon.
and i think i just saw a lizard.
ok, time for my rest.
so goodnight.

ah, i hope i didn't bore anyone of you.
which i know i definitely did.
later walligator.
x o x o

i don't see what this entry's for.
that's where boredom takes me.

aww, i missed it*

2006-02-16T04:27:00.000+08:00
so far down, away from the sun again..

okay, so that was me and legong in the train. (photographer: ernie)
he was playing some stupid silly pokemon game on his cell if i ain't wrong.
and ernie was snapping our pictures away. we felt like supermodels for a while.
i love this song on my blog, away from the sun by three doors down. just random.

here i am again, having a sleepover at ernie's for the third night.
we're both just inseparable twits. and she cooked macaroni again today,
then watched confessions of a teenage drama queen while supper-ing away.
we love watching Lindsay Lohan's chick flicks. when we both were younger,
we'd watch The Parent Trap for almost 10 ten times in just a day. hahaha.
still, our number one favourite would be MEAN GIRLS* i know right..

the afternoon went on fine, met carl since he wanted to meet me today instead.
then headed off to jurong point in the evening.
so it was me, ernie, safwan, raz, ezekiel, legong and his friend.
walked around the mall and safwan bought me waffles since
i kept whining for it. i prefer those waffles soft and lumpy.
i asked for some butter flavour but it turned quite awful for me,
too oily and a little too salty so i just gave legong the whole
thing after i've had enough of eating my share. ergh, not nice.

after our time at the mall, headed back home.
ernie and me turned to the laptops and started going online.
then tadaa*, chit chat chat chit chat chot. i called fara and she
was totally shocked upon hearing my voice. i think she said it
sounded like a dead frog. i feel so sick today. not sick like sick,
but just that sick feeling in my throat. SORE THROAT and i hate that. gah.

it's not getting any better but getting worse and i feel like my voice
is just as similar as a cock-a-doo bird on its deathbed.
i'll be heading off to westspring secondary school tomorrow,
hilarious i know, but raz wants ernie and me to accompany him
go get his n'levels certificate. so yes, will be around bukit panjang i guess.

i hope i don't bump into anyone tomorrow, and even if i do,
i think, i'd REFUSE TO SPEAK. i've got a temporary manly voice.
even ezekiel agreed while ernie was on the phone with him.
i was like making some stupid "come strip me bebe" phrase with
that sickening voice. gosh, i sound horrendous. i know right..

anyhows, does anyone love watching debbie travis facelift?
I DO! and someone i know does too.. haha.
well today's episode was quite interesting.. i love house decors lah.
gosh* i'm just so excited to have my own home and
start with all the interior decor. oww, i can't wait.

and "how clean is your house", i just love those fluffy little gloves they wear.
i want those too. hahaha. ok whatever nurul, i think you're just simply bored.

ernie's at it again! she's stuck some facial mask on her face, and again
listening to Benny Bennassi. she's so much in love with him now.
and finally after about twenty minutes, she have just took off that mask.

oh yes, before i forget. i had multiple orgasms today* GOSH.
just hop on to ernie's blog and check out what's the dillio.
haha, right. i'm just messing around. mmhmm..

it's already 4:10AM and i bet ernie and me will be sleeping late again.
well, it's ALREADY LATE! and i'm suppose to have enough sleep and rest
for myself. i better start trying to sleep in early. i need to get rid of these
terrible eye-bags. i think i should just get myself sleeping pills.

if you're going to san francisco, be sure to wear some flowers in your hair..
that's the song we're listening to now..

anyway, it gets really annoying when i open my mouth and try to speak
but no sound comes out, instead i sound like a quarter-dead fish
gasping for breath. aaaah, being sick just sucks and ernie just farted. poot*

ernie was being a meanie today, bad bad ernie.
she did alot of things that made me orgasm a whole lot.
gosh* i should really stop with all these orgasm thingy.
i think it's bore-ing the pork out of everyone reading.

anyhows, i better get some rest for myself.
i'll blog again tomorrow. and hakim's having his
exams tomorrow, GOOD LUCK* and congratianos
for getting the most votes for Teens Model Search`06.

well, i'll be heading to bed soon, with ernie.
wait, that doesn't really sound right. hoh.

could've been so beautiful.. could've been so right..
i never know what could've been on a cold and lonely night..

when you love someone, you just say it right there and then,
don't ever let the moment pass you by. you might never know,
when you'll lose that someone, that someone who could've been
the only one you wanted and the one you've always dreamt of,
for the rest of your life.

goodnight lovers.
later walligators.
x o x o

i'm sick..* cough cough.

2006-02-15T11:00:00.000+08:00
i'm sick*, cough cough.
but i'll still stay strong..

i can't believe i'm up this early when i slept real late last night.
i think i'm sick, *cough cough. there's this terrible feeling in
my throat, like i'm having this SORE THROAT. gah. i hate it.

i wasn't supposed to be up this early, but without knowing it,
little miss ernie adjusted the fan and it blew right at me, felt so cold.
but now she's already back to sleeping land and i'm awake chatting with hakim.
we're both waiting for how clean is your house and
debbie travis facelift to start on tv later. i'm bored.

i know i haven't really been updating lately.
i guess i don't really bother if i do, or if i don't.

oh yes, before anything else. here's to all you curious stalkers out there.
yes i broke the relationship off with him. (note: not the other way round.)
things just haven't been going the way we wanted it to, and i guess there's
no point in forcing things to happen, because it just won't.
i don't have to elaborate further do i? so yes, f.y.i all you hater doofs, it's over.

so yesterday was Valentine's, and HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY all of you.
i'm sure you'll all be loving the bouquets, chocolates, flowers,
all those pretty pretty little gifts right. how was the day spent?

everything was a little unexpected for mine.
the morning started off terrible, won't wanna elaborate on that.
headed to fara's, chilled around while she got ready and stuffs,
then moved on to town, met mister froggy fir after fara and me
were looking for some silly ribbon. the frogs were sweet..
exchanging gifts, huggies and huggs. aww.. just so lovely.

we chilled around while waiting for mister hakim.
then i went off to meet him, then brought him to meet the frogs.
four of us had dinner at mcdonalds, the gentlemen bought food
for the ladies, the same chicken mcnuggets meal. as fir said,
"want same same only.." hah. and the guys had burgers.

we all had a good time eating, talking, laughing, giggling,
fara and me as usual, pinching each other below tables.
and fir, with his leg hitting mine. i almost choked on nuggets. haha, right..
i think fir just had a crush on someone last night.. ahem, i wonder who..
and wait, faaara. i still remember what you told me on msn!
and of course what we talked about when the males went to order our dinner.
i haven't forget ah! hahaha. just messing. right, right, right..

dinner was absolutely fulfilling, and not to forget, four free coffee bean's
chocolate ice-blended free, compliments from fara's cousin.
but it was too sweet, i couldn't finish it.

the four of us took a bus to the esplanade, as usual, the places we go
were all packed with couples holding roses and such,
LOVE was everywhere last night. aww.. how sweet.

we sat around the riverside since the seats around the esplanade
were fully hooked with couple romancing, ladeeda-deeda..
enjoyed the night breeze, stars and aeroplanes, passing clouds,
listened to the muzik from fara's walkman phone. i liiive my liiife for youuu..
then fara decided we all play the fuzzy wuzzy game. it was cool.

we played that game while waiting for miss ernie to arrive.
and finally, she did! with a big bag of shopping loads. whoa..
took pictures, joked around.. then the froggies had to leave early.
then the rest of the four of us left a bit later, went to get GREEN TEA*,
then walked towards the train station. bounced back from marina bay.

surprisingly, ernie's valentine alfian and hakim both stays in clementi,
so they sent us to khatib and took another train back to home sweet home.

i'm sure we all had loads of fun yesterday. it was a really good valentine's.
especially having my bestfriends by my side. a valentine's i won't forget.
thank you girlfriends for always being there for me when i needed someone
to talk to. thanks ernie for coming over to my place even though it was real
late at night, just to talk to me about stuffs and make me feel better.
thanks fara for the phonecalls, the times i was at my lowest and you both
were there for me. love you girlies alot and alot. and to my mom, i love you.
thanks for noticing my moods, my swollen eyes full of cries. hah.
thanks mom, for noticing the changes around. you know it all. <3

and thanks to fir, safwan, and all you know who(s) for being such great
listeners. i've learnt to love and treasure the ones who appreciate me.

anyhows, i'm off to watch "how clean is your house" then
"debbie travis facelift" later. heading out again today,
might be meeting safwan, legong and blablabla since they want
me to accompany them get their hair washed at novena.
i mean, can't they like wash it at home? haha.

then heading over to jurong point* with ernie, raz and the rest.
thanks you fives for the absolute fun yesterday! ernie, fara, fir, alfian.
and mister hakim, for also missing out on green*, haha just messing.

i'll blog again soon.
later walligator, and lots of love.
x o x o

maybe you'll learn to realize it one day,
that love doesn't come as easily as you think it would.

Friday*..

2006-02-10T11:01:00.000+08:00
i'ma do right.

it's a Friday and i'm already up quite early.
i slept quite early too last night, i think it's quite a good start.
i do have problems sleeping, it's like i can't sleep at all.
i only force myself to sleep when i feel like it, then i'll find myself
having such a hard time getting to sleep and start listening to the mp3.
it's like i have insomnia or something. right. sleeping problems suck.

i need sleeping pills.

you might notice, my tagboard was gone for a while last night,
i'm putting it up back again. but please people, just stop asking me
about all these kinda you-know-what stuffs. it's getting really annoying.

everyone's asking me, and what am i supposed to say?
explain to everyone? no way. i ain't bothered to tell alls.
i told you in the entry before, it is not what you think it is.
so please, just mind your own business. i've had my terrible
days and nights, so please no thank you i don't need more.
it bitter majorly suck, if you know. i'm really tired of it.

so just mind your own business for now,
and maybe you'll know it yourself one day.

whatever it is, those LOW-LIFE LOSERS who pretends to be me,
"nunu : yah we broke off...im so sad!!!" don't waste your time, really.
just go shit in your pants and stop giving me the attention i don't need.

whatever it is you see, i ain't be replying on my tagboard.
so whenever you see a "nunu" there, you know it's one of those
baboons that just shits right out of their mouths. thank you very nice.

i'll be out again, today. will be shopping for stuffs.
oh yes, good luck to everyone who's getting their O'Level results today.

ah, i'll blog again some time soon.
all these biznatch gets me trippin'.
and yes ellette*, the song previously was No More by 3LW.
and to those who doesn't know the song playing now, it's So Sick by Ne-Yo.

anyhows, i'm just reminiscing.
and this song playing in my mp3 just gets me really sappy.
Brown Eyes by Destiny's Child.

Remember the first day when I saw your face
remember the first day when you smiled at me
you stepped to me and you said to me
I was the woman you dreamed about
remember the first day when you called my house
remember the first day when you took me out
we had butterflies although we tried to hide
and we both had a beautiful night

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to find true love
I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it`s me he trusts
and he`s missing me if he`s not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
remember the first day we had an argument
we apologized and then we compromised
and we haven`t argued since
remember the first day we stopped playing games
remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

The way we held each others hand
the way we talked the way we laughed
it felt so good to fall in love
and I knew right then and there you were the one

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it`s me he trusts
and he`s missing me if he`s not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

i`m so happy so happy that you`re in my life
and baby now that you`re a part of me
you showed me
showed me the meaning of true love
and i know he loves me

I know that he loves me cause he told me so
I know that he loves me cause his feelings show
when he stares at me you know that he cares for me
you see how he is so deep in love
I know that he loves me cause its obvious
I know that he loves me cause it`s me he trusts
and he`s missing me if he`s not kissing me
and when he looks at me his brown eyes tells his soul

He looks at me and his brown eyes tell his soul..

i still remember.
x o x o

no more*

2006-02-09T02:40:00.000+08:00

you do, or you don't, you don't.
you will, or you won't, you won't.
oh i just love this blog song.

whoa, alot have been happening these past few days.
won't wanna elaborate on that. and stop wondering, doof.

oh yes, before anything else i should just tell you people, what you see
is not what you think it is. yes just get that in your heads, please. hah.
just don't waste your time trying to figure out what's happening
around, or even ask me because i ain't be bothered to explain. [ (-.-)" ]

ouch, i've been having stomach cramps since *up there* knows when.
not been eating! lost all my appetite. where has it all gone to?
GLENN COCCO! 4 for you glenn cocco! you go glenn cocco!

random. f.y.i, its ernie&mine's total addiction. MEAN GIRLS.
we've both been watching that for God knows how many effing times.
and somehow we managed to memorize almost all the lines. coolness.
and i can't wait for the both of us to start indulging in dance classes,
yoga maybe, skateboarding(hah!) can you imagine that? seriously,
not even before we start learning a trick, we'd break the deck into two.

but yes, we're both working out on our pact.
(ernie, you know i know we both know, *ahem)
signed, sealed and delivered to our bimbo brains.

it was sleepover at Khaty's place last night, we did alot of
stuffs together especially talking our whole gut feelings out.
we put on cream mask, cucumber on our eyes, lights off and heads
on bed, we just talked a whole lot, about everything that's bothering
our heads last night. girly tears and hugs. then we did waxing and stuffs,
played around with her fat tubby cat and sooo much more. it was so good.

girls night in, always fun.
too bad we just didn't pig out on the
big tub of ice-cream she had in her fridge.

i've been going out alot, but eating less, sleeping less, i so need my rest.
i got loads of pictures to uploads but am currently in a lazy modes.
the lazy bug has attacked me, again. wonder when it's going away.

poor ernie, she's sending me all the pictures we took through e-mail,
a little bit of effort there. we've been doing lots of things together lately.
and she just bought this superwhoa fred perry bag, cost a bomb there.
and we're getting the same hoodie most probably tomorrow, i got loads
more of stuffs that i need to clear off my shopping list.
and i mean, terribloads.

my neighbourhood is seriously a bit fcuked.
at least once or twice a week something might go wrong.
beat-ups&fights, quarrelings, police cases, suicide cases,
loud dangdut music (up @ fourth floor`eew), i can't think of anything else,
but yes its like so interesting, because from my room i can
almost see everything that's happening. intriguing nights, yes.

and one time, its this middle-aged couple quarreling in the middle
of like 2a.m, i could clearly hear the screams and cries and slaps
and beatings and ladeeda-deeda, then the man actually dragged
the woman to the playground just infront of my house,
like a few metres away from my sight. i won't elaborate on how
the poor lady reacted and stuffs but it was a pitiful sight.
then the police actually came down, yeah. i'm a little busybody i know.

but nevermind all that, i still love this place though.
been living here since i was born, and have never moved.
feels so at ease, just nice&just the right atmosphere for me to live in.

all that aside, i must be pretty much bored to have actually
came out with a topic of my ghetto hood. LOL. but yes, it's a
really nice place, nice neighbours except for the one on the fourth floor.
loud dangdut music, IRRITATING PESTs (KIDS), all foul-mouthed,
ladeeda-deeda i can go on and on ranting,
but it's a whole noisome jungle up there.
i'm mean, but they're all that. seriously.

ASIDE, please.
it's 3 and i have yet to receive the email ernie sent,
please don't tell me it isn't reaching my mailbox. gah.

and i've been procrastinating. there's alot of things i need to do,
like reply to my e-mails, tags, this that shiznats but i haven't really
been doing anything. busy busy bee going all slow and shaky.

anyhows, i'll be out tomorrow (which is later), getting my hoodie,
and maybe some other stuffs. and oh ya, some random guy actually
came up to me today and said i have the "characteristics" of being a teacher.
like how random can that be? but i was actually kinda touched, ngehe.

because since young, i've always wanted to be a teacher.
but what teacher? i haven't exactly figured out yet.
i love kids though, as long as they don't turn into annoying brat pests!

turn it up, turn it up, i'm falling.
turn the music up and fall in love with me.
ashlee simpson rocks my playlist these days.

well, i'm off to sugar dreams.
MSN is being a whore right now. can't seem to sign in at this time.
and i wonder where's that email with a whole buncha pictures?
ah well, more pictures soon.

truth comes easy, but it's hard for you to pull me.

goodnight.
see you when we both collide.
x o x o

aielyu?

2006-02-07T00:36:00.001+08:00
weird, but true.
thought this night, never would,
but it all did, never thought it could..
ai el yu.

and.. good5months to you..
x o x o

Valentine's?

2006-02-05T10:59:00.000+08:00
February 14 becomes a day for exchanging love messages.
the day is made special by lovers sending out poems with
sentimental verses and simple gifts such as flowers and chocolates.

so Valentine's Day is just around the corner, have you people
actually thought of your plans, and the cracking of brains to think
of a perfect gift for your honey-bunny loved one?

a day all about love, it doesn't matter if the gift is the most perfect
you think it would be, it doesn't need to be an expensive piece of
watch or jewellery, or anything expensive you think would impress
your loved one. the only thing that matters is that,
it comes right from your heart.
it's the thought that counts.

a girl will always fall in love with any gift their love one would give.
and for the girls who've been thinking of what to get for your boyfriends,
you needn't think too much or start digging out on your savings,
if you can afford a costly gift, yeah, why not splurge for your valentine,
but for the most of us girls, the sweetest gift would always be
something specially made by us. heh, heh.
created by the hands of love. haha.

there are so many pretty sweet ideas for us to start working on.
you don't have to buy a card, you can make a card.
you don't have to print a picture, you can draw pictures.
you don't have to have an expensive dinner, you can always make dinner.
most things just doesn't need us to splurge on money if we don't have it,
make it special, something romantic and sweet, something you've never
done before, something memorable that you can never forget it.

it's a day for just the both of you, make it romantic.
and (guys take note*) especially for the girlies, FLOWERS.
flowers is one of the most popular presents to give to
any girly on a special occasion, especially on Valentine's Day.

flowers are a natural way to make anyone feel good:
the beauty of a bunch, bouquet or arrangement of flowers
will brighten up any room and absolutely delight the person
lucky enough to receive them.

for Valentine's Day, the best flower to give and to receive,
is a ROSE. especially a red rose which symbolizes romantic love.
they're the "Valentine Rose." here are some color meanings of roses.

RED :. it says it all, "I Love You."
Yellow :. yellow roses signify joy and gladness; historically,
they meant a decrease of love and infidelity.
White :. signify spiritual love and purity; bridal white means happy love.
Coral :. coral roses imply desire;
Orange :. it says "I am fascinated and enthusiastic."
Lavender :. love at first sight.
Pink :. light pink roses imply grace, gentility and admiration;
dark pink roses say "thank you."

actually, you don't have to wait for a special occasion to give flowers,
in fact, flowers given for no reason other than "thinking of you.."
means much more to a girl or a boy because they are unexpected.

a gift of flowers goes a long way,
every woman can remember the last time she got flowers.

on one of the Valentine's i had, i received a nice surprise,
kinda unexpected, a plush rose. yes, not a real rose but
like a big toy rose. that was sweet. sometimes when you least
expects it, the best surprise comes out right infront of you.
but that was a pretty good gift, because the rose never did wither.

i've received bouquets and stalks of roses,
of course which girl wouldn't love it.
it's all the thought that counts.

and girls, don't ever forget what's written in a card,
a poem, or a picture, a love message, signed by yours truly.
just fill the whole pages with love, love and lots of love.

"there is a place you can touch a woman
that will drive her crazy. her heart."

you both don't have to be thinking so much of a perfect place to be,
as long as time lets you both share your love together on that special day.
and not only for that day, you can make everyday a Valentine's Day.
fill it with lots of love and trust no matter where you both are.

the sweetest thing would be just the two of you,
sitting, cuddling, staring into each other's eyes,
and talking just about anything under the sky..
don't it just feels good to love and be loved, aww..

right now, when you're reading this and you're thinking of someone,
that's the person you're loving most. the only one you truly love.
so don't even hesitate to call them up and say, I Love You.
don't just let the moment pass you by.

and Carl,
to the world, you may just be one person,
but to me, you mean the world. I Love You.

x o x o

Alive&Kicking*

2006-02-04T11:56:00.000+08:00
love the song?everytime we touch by cascada.
i'm back again, pretty much alive and kicking.
the past recent days have been majorly bitter. and as you can see, i have bangs already!BANG BANG my baby shot me down.bang bang i hit the ground..
yes, i went to snip off my fringe, for bangs like that.just a change, and i have no idea butit just feels so much better that way.you know, it's like snipping away parts ofthe problems i've been facing. pretty weird i say.
but it's true, everytime i'm down and distressed,i'd end up just snipping my hair off.and then i'll just feel better.thank God this time its just bangs.i have no intention of cutting my hair. whoop whoop.
it's a saturday, and i'm heading to town.watching Chingay, yes! meeting my friendsand my boyfriend too. well, right now he's justoutside my place, you know the soccer field at my place,he's there having a soccer match. how nice.. just infront of my eyes.
Safwan, Fir and Carl came over for some drinks.and then went off to play soccer again. hah.i can just see him from my window, aww.
don't i just feel like running to that field and give him a huge hug and a wet kiss just like how The Notebook does.that movie's like the L.O.V.E man. totally love it.and like Ashlee Simpson's L.O.V.E is my current addiction,oh and not forgetting, Cascada's Everytime We Touch.
that's totally bangin'. cus' everytime we touch i get this feeling,and everytime we kiss i swear i could fly,can you feel my heart beats fast,i want this to last, i need you by my side.cus' everytime we touch i feel the static,and everytime we kiss i reach for the sky,can't you hear my heart beat so,i can't let you go.i want you in my life.
that's hawt. i looooove that song. so trance.so anyways, things are getting better in my life,surprisingly, it got better after i have bangs. LOL.
and errm, right now i don't really have muchto blog about, hopefully soon things will get pretty muchback to normal again and i'll start updating more.i need to go have my shower and get ready todrop by ernie's place, then meet my boyfriend lats.
(read: lats >> later)
it's my totally PINK day.i'm putting pinks on me today. ah, how bimbotic.right.
apologies for the boring entry.
and thanks for the comments guys.that's really sweet.got to go now.lovyaahs.
x o x o

life on the rocks...*

2006-01-31T03:27:00.000+08:00
this song, is for you Carl.

i actually do have a whole chunk of pictures to post,
but apologies to you dear stalkers, i'm too lazy to do so.

and i've a couple of entries on my blogspot, but i decided to
save it as draft. have no idea why i didn't publish it though.

so before anything else, i'd like to wish all the chinese
a happy prosperous new year. how time flies, it's already a year.
last year i watched a surprising fireworks display at the riverside sky,
and this year again just before dinner at the marina square with carl,
booooom. fireworks again, again i thought it was some bomb attack.

anyhows, here are the pictures of girls night in with khaty.
she came over to my place two days ago,
with makeups, gossips and camwhorings.

thanks for everything Khaty..

things have been on a pretty rough patch for me lately.
and i guess i haven't really been myself, i don't have to elaborate.
but it feels like i'm such in a tangle of mess, and i want to get out of it.

haven't been eating proper meals for myself, feeling restless at most times,
this whole chunk of poo are giving me headaches and too, tummyaches.
i miss that pretty carefree life, with no wrongs and regrets weighing on
my shoulders. i miss those days where we'd both laugh at the most
stupidest things we see or talk about, i really do miss those days.

how i feel everything this life once face, has extremely changed.
i miss a girlfriend of mine, where we use to spend at least every week
once together, we'd meet for glamorous shots, silly makeovers, dvds,
shopping eating and laughing at every single thing. sharing, loving.

and then i miss this kisslicious of mine, whom is feeling too lost in her world,
just like me. no matter how far we both have yet to catch up with things,
she's still very close to my heart. you know who you are babe, i miss you.
and you know i can't wait for that one whole day we're gonna spend t'getha.

the only thing certain in life is everything changes.

so thankful i have my bestfriends who still stands by me.
even though we don't get to meet everyday, we'd catch up with
sleepovers, girls day out, talks on msn or late night chats on the phone..
even lucky to have a bestfriend who loves to cook for me. (hehe)
i really do have to look at the brighter side, and treasure the ones
who've been so caring and concern about me. they're the best, <3.

and of course, the one i've been loving most.
he's just the most special person i'd give my all to.
things might have change, and we've been through alot now,
but we still both know how much we love each other, and no matter how
bad the words and actions could get, we're still always there for each other.

at some point in time, i feel that nobody actually understands me,
which i know now, it's no surprise, because i don't understand myself either.

i guess i just need time to figure out my own mess and get myself
tangle out of it. it's where i feel the need to be alone for a while.
i hope that kinda explains the lack of updates and procrastinations.
i have yet to publish the entry on creating a blogskin. i know, silly me.

i hope, to whoever(s) it may concern, just give me some time to pick
myself up beyond this whole mess i've made. i'm sorry for not being able
to pick my rights and wrongs out. sometimes i even say the things which
i don't even mean at all, and it hurts to see you, seeing me this way.

cheeses, i think this entry is getting so emotional than ever, fullstop.
hoping for the usual bouncy entries again soon. just give me some time.

ah, i hope i didn't bore anyone of you.
if so, shove some cheese right up your ass,
and don't read nor comment. have a great week ahead!

and oh, before i forget.
to my friends who've been asking about "sinetron Dia",
the synopsis of future episodes can be found on the internet.

click HERE, then forums, look for 'sinetron Dia', and look through
the hundreds of pages. that's what the momsie did and she took days
and hours just for it. you really need to be patient though, there's plenty
and you have to look through for it. i guess to all the fans like the mother,
the family, the aunties, the friends and also me, it's real worth it. (hahaha)
(for being such impatient spoiltbrats and cheat on the episodes..)
and Gita is just so adorable don't you all think so? have fun then!

goodnight walligators.
a sleepless night, and my loss of appetite.
x o x o

i miss you, carl.

i need you..

2006-01-29T02:10:00.000+08:00
baby..

I don't need a lot of things, I can get by with nothing,
Of all the blessings life can bring, I've always needed something,
But I've got all I want, When it comes to loving you,
You're my only reason,You're my only truth..

I need you like water, Like breath, like rain,
I need you like mercy, From heaven's gate,
There's a freedom in your arms, That carries me through,
I need you..

You're the hope that moves me, To courage again,
You're the love that rescues me, When the cold winds rage,
And it's so amazing, 'Cause that's just how you are,
And I can't turn back now, 'Cause you've brought me too far,
I need you like water, Like breath, like rain,
I need you like mercy, From heaven's gate,
There's a freedom in your arms, That carries me through,
I need you..
Oh Yes I do..

i need you; leann rimes.
x o x o

i have myspace!

2006-01-26T10:52:00.000+08:00
don't put words up in my mouth.

hello there again cheeses, i've been procrastinating.
dear ernie's on my bed now, we had a sleepover!
and i don't have much to blog about right now,
so just updating you peepos,

i have myspace!*

like finally, i had no cheesing idea how to go about using it,
but thankfully i made ernie teach me. so anyone of you who
uses myspace, don't forget to give me an add.

love you cheeses.
hopefully, proper blog entries soon.

x o x o

terribly sick and upset. w a t e v s.

2006-01-20T00:26:00.000+08:00
the only reason why i've "no opinion and brains",
was because i had you as my friend.
now don't think you'll ever be.

*girlies day in, girlies day out.
ernie and nunu in the heezay.

i'm terribly sick today, horrible flu, sore throat, cough.
having a slight fever and to make it worst, tummy aches.
i keep sneezing and coughing, and my throat is giving me
this biznatch feel. to top it all off, there's this killer feeling
that i need to puke out all the air and food that's inside of me.
i'm officially sick today. ouch.

well i know i promised you pictures, so here goes.

ernie and me french'd ourselves. mine is the normal french
while her's the stylissimo french. black base and red tip.
you know french manicures doesn't have to be just shades
of white. it's so much style when you experiment with
different colours and shades. i'm gon' try pink and purple next!

aww, pretty sweet ain't it. girlfriends loving, <3.
and this was ernie and me camwhoring our way.

we both can never get enough of the camera. click it, snap it.
and oh, ernie got a fabolous idea but i don't think i can reveal what.
she's been drawing pretty stuffs on her sketchbook, really nice!
finally working our talents off to something, heads full of ideas.

the three musketiaras. we just love the camera baby.
and oh, we're just hell bent on smacking that p*ssy up.
seriously, don't mess with us. you've got the wrong people to mess with.
nobody says SHIZNIT about me or my bestfriend, alright.
-(C) ernie,nunu,sarah.

she's gonna get it, fo'real.

so later in the evening at yan's place, things got chillaxin' hilarious.

we girls just got blazin' high on macaroni, and oh, before that we were
near admiralty mrt where they got these little foodstalls,
we both bought sardine wrapped in bread fried with egg,
and banana fritters! it was uber delicious, crispy but too
bad it wasn't hot. but still, yummmmmmmmy. we ate loads!

a sight of us, you don't really see. we went bombastique.
thanks girlfriend, for a fabolous day with you.
and we're gonna fock miss emoscreamo fo' shizzle.
so much for being a follower of no one but herself, pooooi. *spits.
mothergooseness, we all agree who she actually follows.
aey, we don't need sexually deprived friends at all,
especially a slut like that who's sucha coward, tagging my board,
spitting shiznit about my bestfriend and me, thinking we wouldn't
know it's actually her, oh no, we're sooo scared. we're so intimidated.
*slits throat.hahahahaha.
laugh our farts out loud babe. oh i forgot, you said i've no brains.
so let me, the brainless wonder, tell you something.
i didn't know you were really sexually deprived until you actually
told people you gave blowjobs and had sex with my boyfriend.

and telling me to stop talking about my boyfriend because
it's BORING? aw naw, YOU desperately should get a life of your
own miss, if it's boring, i can't believe you even bother reading it. *scoff.
too bad, your bestest boyfriend YOU HAD that you still haven't and
have never ever gotten over with, left you back then.
and too bad for you, he's mine now.

we all know how hard you try to break us up.
well, TRY HARDER NEXT TIME.

i've never ever expected you to react this way,
and i'm sure your friends feel the same too.

i know i can be mean, but never ever provoke me man.
or even talk shit about my bestfriend!
there you go. a fking pissed me.

on my tagboard:

and what she typed on fara's.
who you tryin'a kid?
yes she actually bothered to go all the way to fara's to say that?
gosh, i feel shameful for her. tell me who wouldn't feel angry at
someone who be spittin' us that way? and then pretends to be nice to us.

i've always thought we all could be friends,
but too bad i know we can never ever be now.
yes we did have our share of good times,
but that was THEN, and this is NOW.

you're jealous, envious, sick, mean and pretentious.
(insert a whole chunk of negativities here) so don't be frontin' with us.
you talk a whole load of shit hackin' on us and everyone else.
what you dissed me about was fine, no sweat.
but what you said about my bestfriend is mean,
and no way am i ever gonna take that!

that's when you learn,
treat me the way you wanna be treated, you janky skank!
you get what you deserve.
****

i was telling Irwan a.k.a LIPA about what happened.
so he decided to take the risk and went to her site.
he got a shock of his life and said,

oh my god she look like an asshole!
hahahahaha! laugh my smelly farts out man. proooot*
and oh, i kissed a cat.

but i still love my boyfriend so much..

goshies, can't wait to meet my boyfriend tomorrow,
double-dating with fara and froggie fir.
it has been such a long time since we both hungout. & i miss her! <3
and seeing ernie, sarah, razali, lipa and the gang..
intoxication is near, i can even feel it in my bones!

lats!
x o x o

[yeah, whatever you say. this entry could be mean and insulting,
whatever your hate-comments are. but this is how i feel,
and that's what YOU need to know. you loathe it, now bounce!]
*w a t e v s.

girlies day in (sarah's place)*

2006-01-19T11:45:00.000+08:00
cus' that brings me closer to you.

it was girlies day in, ernie and me hopped on to sarah's place.
had a rollin' good time camwhoring, gossiping, making noise
and stuffs. i bet her grandma was stuffing wool in her ears.

and here's just a hilarious random conversation;
sarah: (pointing to the anchovies with a long bean)
"eww i hate these fishy thingies,
they even got their little eyes and heads on."
ernie and nunu already laughing their asses off.

then it was camwhoring time;
i'll let the pictures do the talking for now.

featuring; sarah, nunu and ernie.

when three cheeky girls meets a camera.
we girls were pretty energetic and tickled pink.
had such a fabolous afternoon with the girlies,
just can't wait to do it again babes. LOVES, <3.

later in the evening,
ernie and me were supposed to head down to town,
but eventually the plan switched and we headed
down to Yan's house in Admiralty. it was already raining then.
and we both took a cab opposite the train station to his house,
it was such a complicated route.

so what was smokin' hawt there?
his momsie cooked super delicious fried macaroni,
ernie and me had two yummy plates of it. *pinches fats.
watched loads of mtv, roomraiders, pimp my ride, taildaters.
talked, joked, laughed about. ernie bullied yan a whole lot too.
hahahahaha! and then i bullied ernie, made her scratch my leggie.

it was fun there, and i have lots of pictures to upload,
hopefully soon i'll publish it somewhere in here.
and more pictures posted tomorrow.

anyhows, i do have plenty to talk about,
but i'm waaaay tired. the weekend is near,
and i'm hell bent on smacking that p*ssy up.

by the way ghostly slut, if you think we're dumb,
you're way way STUPID. we've got stuffs to proove it.
gosh, you really should be ashamed of yourself now.

whateveros, i'm heading to bed now.
yaaaaaaaaaawn.

i miss you baby.
x o x o

french fabolous; and i'm freakin' bored.

2006-01-18T13:48:00.000+08:00
a dream is a wish your heart makes.
a dream is a wish your heart makes.

anyone loves disney classics? you might know
where i got that quote above from. cinderella.

woke up this morning, was feeling bitter majorly bored,
so flick'd through the channels and watched the stepford wives.
and so now blue crush is showing on hbo, ain't watching it again.
watched that like super many times. blah. but it's really good though.

i'm going to be stucked in boredom nation today,
planning to think through about my future. (?!@$#*^!)
hell yes, nobody knows what the future holds.
but it's time i reflect on myself and find out what i really want to do.

i had a weird dream last night, i was already at the airport,
heading to SAN FRANCISCO?! so i was waiting and looking at
the ticket, i remembered it was a white sheet with medium blue fonts.
my flight was supposed to be at, 12:30 am/pm i ain't sure.
and my families were around, i remembered clearly my sister was there.

i guess i was feeling rather nervous, boarding a flight alone
without my parents. and i knew in that dream i was totally
half-hearted about going abroad. it was like, either i go or i don't.
(and actually, that's kinda exactly how i feel, but nevermind that)
and then the time came when i was about to, hah, check-in?
my passport went missing.

yes funny, exactly. my passport actually went missing.
my parents went back home to check on my passport
but it wasn't around, and so everything ended right there.
i didn't go. and the dream did continue, but i couldn't really
remember whatever else happened in between or after.
it ended right there..

and lately, there's been talks and thoughts of me studying abroad.
i don't know what that dream meant, but somehow i got a huge feeling
there's gonna be a big change in my life, somewhere some time.
a feeling that something's coming right up ahead of me,
but i have no hell idea what.

and yes i've been thinking and day-dreaming alot about studying
abroad. i don't know, but there's this big feeling that i might be.
cheeses greases i really have no idea and this whole intuition thing
could be totally wrong. but whatever it is, i know i can't bear to
leave everyone behind, my families, friends and especially, my love.
i can't bear to leave all of them behind..

it's just hard. i've never been used to leaving my whole heart behind,
other than being left, i rather not leave. so that's it, just something
that's been running in my train of thoughts.
gosh i just want to shrug it all off, please.

i know i've been bad, but God please help me.

on a much brighter note, i french'd myself.
hah, not french kissing, but it's what i call french fabolos.

dear ernie was telling me that i should go for a french manicure
since my nails have grown long, but i said it's quite expensive and
i rather do it on my own, so there i did it. was feeling bored, and
started playing with my nails.. i love french manicures! pretty sweet.

you girls should try it, really fun i must say.
but of course, it would be better being pampered like a diva
by going for a manicure or pedicure. but for fun's sake,
do it yourself and splurge the moolah on something else. girlpower!

i used to have dry, weak and brittle nails.
i'd always face those "shit! i broke a nail" bimbo boozle.
but after some time it got better, i managed to grow it much
longer and don't often face those broke a brittle nail problem.

ok, all that nail talk aside.
it's Stay Home Wednesday.
i'm not planning on heading out anywhere.
nunu's being a good girl for the day, hah.

so anyhows, i guess i'll blog again later maybe
in the evening, or night. it just rained here in
chongpangvale, just nice. i need the rain today.
but sadly i know it's going to pour for just a teeny while.

time to listen to some sappy shnappy love songs,
look out the window and enjoy the view of pitter patter raindrops.
including people running for shelter, heh. funny.
and then when i get sick of melancholy tunes,
i'll turn up some trance on my speakers and do some boogey.

i seriously need to cheer myself up.
people say i've been rather down lately, and i do agree.
but what say you?

quote of the day;
appreciate the simplest things in life.
and baby, i love you. too much to let go. i love you carl.
x o x o

haha, by the way hate tagger
"whatever",
i so know who you are.
thank you for your kind attention, babe.
but don't fking get my bestfriend involved, you ghostly slut.

baby, you're all i ever needed.*

2006-01-17T02:48:00.000+08:00
as the scent of hope slips through.

i'm feeling a tinge sleepy, but boredom overtakes
my sleepyness, that my butt is just glued to the chair
while i sit around and stare blankly into space,
with jessica simpson playing in the background.
and so i decided, to blog.

it's 2:13am, and i'm chatting with laney babe.
ahem* we got so much to talk about, so much we talked about.
girly gossips and secret bits. just great for a boring night in.
and you're right babe, imma heed your advice. *`winks.

this afternoon went on fine, though it got quite a little boring at times
and there i can feel it, tomorrow's gonna be much worse. i wonder.
the momsie made fried rice for dinner, and it's the first time ever
her fried rice was more spicy than usual. in fact, too spicy.

f.y.i, the mother doesn't eat chilli or any kinds of spice.
not even pepper, or any kinds of minty flavour.
she's like allergic, yeah. a little weird.
she can't even take axe oil.
so that explains why she doesn't really cook spicy stuffs,
or even if she does, it doesn't taste that spicy afterall.
but today was a little different, spicy too many.

that's the mother. usually she'll cook like extra dish for herself.
for example she'll make two sets of fried rice, one with the normal
spicy ingredients and the other, total plain spice/chilli-less.

but however spice-less she gets, she's still special to me.
no matter how a fanoozling bitch she can be,
she's the best momsie ever, so precious to me.
i love you mother queen.

anyhows, to all my blog readers, stalkers, lovers, haters whatevers,
it's time now i make a decision to keep my life a little more personal.
i'm keeping things in an introspective way.

because i guess, and from what i know, about close to five hundred
reads my blog a day, it gets a little surprising, because i used to have
none reading my blog since i started blogging, day one in 2002.

and a few months back was a hundred plus,
but i guess now it's a little different for me.
i too don't know who visits and reads my blog, or tags and stuffs.

and i'm doing this for myself i'm sure, keeping my entries a little
more private. maybe the future entries will be quite a little dull,
plain and, you can say, nothing interesting at all.
i guess it all depends now.

so just get used to the changes around.
and oh, i might be signing up for livejournal,
but i'm keeping it locked&private, for closies only.

to those hate-taggers, you low-life doofs will never stop,
and just to remind you, your concern and interest in my life
is very much appreciated. thank you for all the obsession in disguise.

my eyes are getting heavy.
and your soul baby, completes me.

goodnight sweetloves.
x o x o

and she replies..

shasha; i got the top from mango and that was a year ago.
i'm not sure if they still do have them in stories now.
but count on your lucky stars, you might find them somewhere!
and just a suggestion, you could look for those typa tops
maybe from forever21, or fox, maybe zara.
but hopefully they still have it in mango. *crossfingers*

ear drums: the world is black*

2006-01-15T21:00:00.000+08:00
a little piece of heaven, i call my own.

hello there, fried chickens from my nightmare.
queen of procrastinators is back again to blog.

the day went on fine though i still felt like i was a
little stucked in boredom nation. so i just flick'd
through the channels on my starhub digital cable,
then decided to watch E!Entertainment which was
showing Wild On Tara. so there, couch potato for
the whole evening.

before that, my tummy was terribly groaning of hunger,
so i called in KFC's delivery. mom told me to order fortune
fiesta, i had an imagination that i would feast on the chix,
nuggets and popcorn chixes. but well i only took a huge piece
of chix, ate it with chilli sauce and coleslaw.

so much for being so hungry, i got superly full right after.

yesterday was a fab'lus day out, together with baby.
then we met up with ernie, raz, and a bunch of nice peeps.
we had a fancy good time with all the boobie fights.
aww, love them friends and of course, the boyfriend.

headed off to the esplanade later in the night,
ernie went off with her friends, so raz, baby and me
chilled around at the riverside. it was quite a crowd there,
so we decided to find a peaceful spot for ourselves.

laid on the rocks, talked, joked around and of course,
our pastime whenever we're plain bored, gossiping.
gossip topic #1, only we and ernie know.

it's really nice, just hanging out with your closies.
doing nothing but just plain chilling, talking about
anything and everything under the moonlight.

raz treated us to snacks. raz and baby both got
themselves sandwiches, and for me some instant
spaghetti with crabmeat and fish nugget.
i ate that like about a year ago?

then we left almost midnight, took a cab back home.
three of us squeezed in the backseat, i was the first
to drop off, yishun then bukit panjang and jurong.

legs were giving way, and second day with aunt flow
wasn't good at all. i thought first days were worst,
but the second day's a killer! well whatever aunt flow.

and so another bad shiz is, my gum is aching.
and the top right side of my gum is swollen.
probably because doctor vaz tightened my braces.

i still wonder, when am i taking my braces off.
and everybody else is asking me. heh, i shall ask
my dentist about it. i sure am gonna miss these grilles
once they're gone. oh bracy bracy, don't leave me teethie.

well i'm just feeling a little uncomfy here.
because of my teeth that is, i can't really bite in proper.
but it's good, so i won't eat that much in a day.

so anyways, i was just sitting around, feeling a lil' bored,
so i noted down some romantic ideas for you babes to
spend some quality love time with your dear sweethearties.

* give each other back rubs and massages.
* take showers together. (aww, bubbly!)
* look into each other's eyes. pretty mysterious ay.
* keep one of your girlfriend's bra or a boyfriend's boxer shorts
somewhere secret and only for you to see it. hahaha, nice.
* lips were made for kissing, and so were eyes, cheeks, fingers,
hand, collarbones, and oh, the ear. pretty nice spots to kiss too!
* fall asleep in his arms or his laps. aww, sweet..
* listen to smooth groove songs and cuddle together in the dark.
* record yourselves on video and then look back at how lame
and retarded your pretty handsome faces can get. ahem* haha.
* sit and talk, in just underwear. hahaha. it's pretty cute.
* wear his clothes or put on his boxers. that's adorable!
* and just one kinky more, undress each other! ooow. sizzle sizzle.

so there you go. some pretty nice things to do with your bunnylove.
and i'm missing my karlee bee right now, he's gone skateboarding
with his friends. i'm sure he's having a blast there, and hopefully
he's taking care of himself too. =) i miss you baby!

don't you girls just miss your dear boyfriend whenever he's not around?
it's like as if you just want him there with you, right beside you.
if possible in every single moment. and you never ever feel like going apart.
you don't care if you waste a clubbing girl's night out with your coolest
babes on earth, and just spend the whole night cuddling with your honey.
because that's the only sweetest place to be, at the sweetest time,
in the sweetest arms, with the sweetest person.
aww, we girls just can't get enough of them boyfriends.
L.O.V.E* and girls, just mix like total sugar candies.

anyhows, i'm off to something else.
gonna arrange my accessories back to it's drawers.
ah, i hope i didn't bore you with anything.

later walligator.

you're the sweetest love, baby.
x o x o

i fell in love with the eighth world wonder*

2006-01-13T20:40:00.000+08:00
i fell in love with the eighth world wonder.

and it's making me believe that, you're the one for me..
dear carl, here's a dedication to you, just a little something
to remind you of this endless love i have right in my heart,
and this is only for you baby. i love you so much, and too much to let go.

i am so thankful for all the wonderful things that have happened
to the both of us. all of the greatest things you have ever done for me.
the bestest feelings i have, are the ones that i share with you.
the moments that could have never been more romantic,
the times that could have never bring me more joy,
the love that will always remain, as endless.

you are the most special person i've ever known, the best i ever met,
and here this heart wants to let you know that it will never ever
fall out of love with you and that it couldn't have asked for anything
else better in life than just having you. this heart feels so special
because you're the number one that fills in the spaces.

dear carl, i'm so much in love with you.
and i want you to remember that it will
always be this way until the end of time.

thank you baby, for the most precious gift
you have ever given to me, your love.
i promise you, that i will keep it safe,
with my whole heart, my mind, body and soul.

you're always remain as my eighth world wonder.

love always, nunu.*

hello there, bunny rabbits from my nightmare.
just some updates of what's been happening lately.

a fabolous sleepover at baby's place yesterday.
raz, safwan, nunu and baby. met carl after his school ended,
it has always been non-stop raining recently. raz and me chilled
around at his place while he went for his soccer training.

poor baby had his training in the rain.
and then he came back, i had to go off since i had my
braces appointment. and then i went back again to baby's place
and safwan was already there. all anticipating for the sleepover.

we chilled around, rented and watched vcds, ordered pizzas.
the weather was freezing cold too! brrr.. too cold in there.
the pitter patter rain kept us feeling chilly the whole night.
not to mention it was Friday Night and Friday the 13th. oww..
the four of us just snuggled in on the couch, aww...

then raz and me went to withdraw money somewhere near fajar
shopping centre, and we just raced to the atm machine.
silly me, i ran on the grass and got my feet soaked in mud! eww.

raz piggybacked me to baby's place and it was so funny
that he and me kept shouting and laughing around the place.
and then came the funnest part, we played a poker card game.

the loser has to take a shooter of crapwater.
mixture01: milk, horlicks, coke and mustard sauce.
mixture02: milk, bitter green teabags, some dough bits.

it was really that bad! baby had to do the first loser honour.
and boy was it a bad bad shot! and then my turn came.
i had to gulp two times for mixture01, and three times
for mixture02. it was terrible. that bad 'till i puked the shit
out of me, for four times. the aftertaste was horrible!

safwan, me and baby puked most of it all out and raz was
the steady-pom-pipi of all. but it was so fun! couldn't stop
laughing.. and some people just had to CHEAT. hahaha.
i know what you both did last night. slipped under the tablemat.

then everyone had their shares of tummy-aches,
terrible-smelly-poisonous farts and disgusting burps.
it was total hilarious. and i just can't wait to do it again. hah.

next, we played monopoly. as usual, money money money and
safwan almost went bankrupt. i'm sure everyone had so much fun there.
i was just feeling a little dozy and having terrible cramps.

we talked, laughed and gossiped a whole lot.
then baby went to scare raz with his scary head mask.
this gruesome looking grey monster with a retarded
acid-washed face. baby just kept giggling and giggling
until it all became a laughable joke. scary no more.

and in the middle of the night, baby brought me out for a drive.
no no, just around the carpark area. and woaa was it a thrilling
ride! didn't know baby could drive so well. heh. it was total fun!
and i wish we'd all do it again, soon please! hahaha.

the best sleepover of 2006 so far.

and now i'm back at home, Aunt.Flow arrived this afternoon.
bad bad first day cramps. and Uncle.Bloaty is here too.
that just makes it a terrible night for me to sleep in.
but thinking about the fabolous night we had yesterday
is good enough to make me feel much better about the day.

thinking back, it's really worth it having fun, doing the
stupidest and silliest things ever with your loved ones.
all the fun, peace and laughter shared together.

it's not often that you really get to enjoy your time this way.
playing and joking around, making a fool out of yourself at times..
the best things, might not just come right anytime you want,
but it's all up to you and what that makes the fun all worthwhile.
my familes, my friends, my love, joy and my everything.
they're all i treasure, the most.

here's just one of my favourite quotes;
the bestest things in life cannot just be seen nor touched,
it must be felt with the heart. <3

right now, i'm off to have my rest.
hopefully i'll blog more again soon.
these cramps are killing the bunnies out of me.

by the way baby, sorry i had to take a snap of your picture above!
it's one of the cutest thing i've seen. jet'aime. and i'm so in love with you.

later walligator.
x o x o

don't rub the lamp if you don't want the genie to come out.

2006-01-10T18:55:00.000+08:00
the rules, heh.

there are only three rules that guys should know.
and if these three are understood, you guys might just
save yourselves some trouble. just three basic rules.
from a guy's point of view. ngeks.

rule #1.
the girls always makes the rules.
however, she can let the guy believe he had a say
or even actually made a rule, but the girl will always
be the one deciding on the rule.

rule #2.
girls can change the rules at any time.
this results in the fact that a guy can never know all the rules.
in fact, few guys will ever learn any rules except for these
three very vague rules that girls want us to know and
understand because they just confuse us as to what
they mean and basically just say we must always agree with them.

rule #3.
the guy must always be the one to apologize.
he should also show his understanding of his error
by presenting the girl with gifts such as flowers,
candy, or whatever else she might like.

it doesn't matter whose fault it really is, the guy must still apologize.
even if a girl apologizes for something, this is only a trick to see if
the guy understands Rule #3. if this happens, the guy must also
apologize and guess about whether to accept the girl's apology or
tell her she didn't do anything wrong. the wrong move here can
be worse than not apologizing because it shows a lack of understanding
of what the guy did wrong. so guys be careful and if at all possible
kiss her as soon as possible after apologizing because the less time
she has to ask questions the better!

and one rule that most guys wished a girl knew,
don't rub the lamp if you don't want the genie to come out.

heh, heh! just for laughs people.
got that off from a hilarious website.
if you still haven't got the drift above, you're such a doof.
hah, just messing.

anyhoos, i'm a little obsessed and addicted to
Jessica Simpson's - Forever In Your Eyes.
a sexy love song.. i just love her voice. ok, random random.

i'm feeling sleepy. and my aunts, uncles and cousins just arrived.
blog again later tonight. by the way, a new pink tagboard's up!

signoff, Ms. Vaguely Dissatisfied.
x o x o

baby came over*- love baby sooo much.

2006-01-10T01:36:00.000+08:00
i'll be your sugar queen,
you'll be my summer lovin'.

hello there, sour mangoes from my nightmare.
was a pretty awesome day, also my father's birthday.

pitter patter raindrops. the weather's been misbehaving lately.
it has been raining everyday since the past few weeks!
but no doubt the chilly nights got me down in blissful sleeps.
they say you sleep better when it's raining. and that's so true. yawn..

the day started off with me heading to baby's place.
it was raining cats&dogs, wolves&hippopotamuses.
so i got my umbrella handy, took the cab down to fajar rd.

chilled around at baby's place, watched a video; kate&leopold.
still it was raining and cold, brrr. then both of us were kinda starving,
so we shared a plate of rice and stuffs. yummsies.

carl and me were being such lil babies, we were like feeding each other.
but of course, the better 'feeder' was me. because the rice kept dropping
off the spoon whenever baby feeds me.
haha, awww.. he's still adorable to me although he doesn't feed well.
*laughs* i'm just kidding baby.

so then later i headed home, there was some kinda family dinner..
and then baby came over to my place. chilled and stuffs. looked at pictures.
baby played dad's guitar. while i did a new wallpaper for my desktop.
eew, erase that fuckanatoo face. ngeks.

then later,
had dinner. ate the mango cake (nice though a little eww to me) watched tv.
and of course, "Dia" on Suria Channel. had fun disturbing my nephew Danish.
it was really nice having baby around. then he headed back almost midnight.

hic.. hicc.. i'm having hiccups right now. random.
it's hari raya haji, wishing all you muslims a selamat hari raya aidiladha.
i'm heading over to my uncle's place, hopefully getting to indulge in all
the food glorious food. why is it everytime i try to 'lose weight', all the
weight just sorta comes unexpectedly. be it celebrations, good food around,
this that shiznat. i really have to watch my diet, hmm after tomorrow. hah.

i still haven't forget the pact i signed with ernie. haha.
and that is, to lose weight. *pinches fats all around me*
anyone with good essential tips regarding 'losing weight'?
don't hesitate to comment or mail me about it. thanks!

and by the way, thanks for the comments of my previous entry guys.
i really appreciate that truly, so much.
i haven't really got the time to reply,
but i hope i'll do it soon. thanks again.
that's really very sweet of you. *huggs.

anyhows, my eyes are getting heavy.
and i'm feeling a little hungry.
to supper or not to supper?

i'm starting to miss baby already.
i can only get to see him again on friday.
a little too long for me to wait actually.

he just really makes my day.
sshh, even though i got a tiny wittle piss'd with him,
(just for a tiny short while) he makes sure that i stop
being all grumpy and upsetty, and he makes a sweet lil effort
to do something about it. so at least he'd make me feel better.
that's just so sweet of you baby. i love you so much.
can't wait to see you again hunkydoo. *-kisses.

and i'll hold you tight, baby all through the night..

x o x o

down&confused.. stumped without a clue.

2006-01-08T22:50:00.000+08:00
stumped without a clue.

i don't know if i should put this up here, guess i'll just share.

i've been feeling really down and confused lately.
there's too much in my head for me to think of.
i really don't know what i should do for myself.
i've thought too much.

it's pretty confusing when you think you've made
the right choice, but it actually isn't.
another mistake i made in life.

you people might know, that i've studied in la salle.
and now the semester break is over, semester two has since commenced.
and i haven't even been to any classes yet. that's how bad it is.

problem is, i don't have the interest in la salle, maybe not anymore.
i'm just so pretty confused, what should i do. where should i go.
some say i should go for poly courses, other options includes
private diploma and all those private stuffs in singapore.
but really, i don't know what i want. i'm indecisive.
i haven't really think of what i want to do next.

i might, be pursuing my studies overseas.
it's something i would be looking forward to,
but also something that'll be last on my list.
it's a whole new thing, if i were to study abroad,
start a fresh new life, a new place, all in a new hope,
basically just living in my own independent world.
away from everything that is.

but i just can't bear to leave my families, friends,
all my loved ones here. especially, the one i love most, baby.

no doubt, life has been wonderful to me.
with the best of friends, a boyfriend that have always
been there for me, a family that cares..
only this head full of thoughts
got me feeling all down and low lately.

i'm so trapped in confusion.
i hope i get outta this mess soon.
maybe, i should just carry on with la salle.
which is what both my parents want me to do.
i guess, it's always to do everything they say, "heed their advice."
[sarcasm] they're always right, right? [\sarcasm]

that's how confused i am.
wish i was still living in yesterday.
i thought 2006 could have been better for me.
it isn't too late now, is it?

x o x o
promise, i'll never leave you.

Sizzling .AHEM. Tips.*// and i love you my beebee.

2006-01-08T09:39:00.000+08:00
forever in your eyes.

hello there gooseheads from my nightmare.
today i bring you some useful tips & info, uhm,
mistakes men make while ehmmm with women.

just some advice for the weird little guys checking out my site.
it's time for girlpower unite. however, not all that's said are the opinion
of all girls, just majority and mmm, all that i know of.
who knows your pumpkin might prefer some of these things.
so find out what she likes..

just for your reading pleasure. so, enjoy!

*tips taken from a website.

*//not kissing first.
avoiding her lips and diving straight for the erogenous zones
makes her feel like you're paying by the hour and trying to get
your money's worth by cutting out non-essentials.
a proper passionate kiss is the ultimate form of foreplay.

*//blowing too hard in her ear.
naughty guys just love doing this. (even when it isn't love time, ahem.)
well, there's a difference between being romantic erotic
and blowing as if you're trying to extinguish the candles
on your 17th birthday cake. that hurts dude.

*//not shaving that beard.
you often forget you have a porcupine strapped to your chin
which you rake repeatedly across your partner's face and thighs.
when she turns her head from side to side, it's not passion, it's avoidance.

*//squeezing her melons.
most men act like a housewife testing a melon for ripeness
when they get their hand on a pair. do it the SSC*(TM) way.
stroke, smooth and caress them.

*//ignoring the other parts of her.
a woman is not a highway with just three turnoffs:
Breastville East and West, and the Midtown Tunnel.
there are vast areas of her body which you've ignored
far too often as you go bombing straight into downtown Aunt V-agina.
so start paying them some attention.

*//attacking the, ehmm.
direct pressure is very unpleasant, so gently rotate
your fingers along side of the, ehmm.

*//time out! and you're dead meat.
women, unlike men, don't pick up where they left off.
if you stop, they plummet back to square one very fast.
if you can tell she's not there, keep going at all costs, numb jaw or not. heh.

*//undressing her awkwardly.
women hate looking stupid, but stupid she will look
when naked at the waist with a sweater stuck over her head.
unwrap her like an elegant present, not a kid's toy, you doof.

*//giving her a wedgie during foreplay.
stroking her gently through her panties can be very sexy.
pulling the material up between her thighs and
yanking it back and forth is not! a no-no way.
but sure, wedgie her when you're both hanging around outside,
and girls, don't be afraid to WEDGIE THEM BACK.
those boxers ought to be pulled up high. girlpower!! hahaha.

*//ouch, i'm not a soccer ball.
if you bash your great triangular hip bones into
her thigh or stomach, the pain is equal to two weeks
of extreme horseback riding concentrated into a few seconds.
what do you think she is? groove it gently.

*//coming too soon.
every man's fear. with reason, if you shoot before you see
the whites of her eyes, make sure you have
a backup plan to ensure her pleasure too. hahaha.

*//not coming soon enough.
it may appear to you that humping for an hour without climaxing
is the mark of a sex god, but to her it's more likely
the mark of a numb Aunt-Agina.
at least buy some intriguing wall hangings,
so she has something to hold her interest while
you're playing Marathon Man. teeheehee.

*//asking if she has come.
you really ought to be able to tell.
most women make noise. but if you really don't know, don't ask.

*//moving around during fellatio. (read: oral stimulation of P)
don't thrust. she'll do all the moving during fellatio.
you just lie there. and don't grab her head, NEVER!

*//she's not the porn you watched.
in X-rated movies, women seem to love it when men
shooooooze over them. in real life, it just means more laundry to do. ngeks.

*//she ain't that cowgirl you think she is.
asking her to be on top is fine. lying there grunting
while she does all the hard work is not. poor girlie.
caress her gently, so that she doesn't feel quite so much like
the captain of a schooner. and let her have a rest.

*//love bites.
it is highly erotic to exert some gentle suction
on the sides of the neck, if you do it carefully.
no babe wants to have to wear turtlenecks
and jaunty scarves for weeks on end.

*//barking instructions.
don't shout encouragement like a coach with a megaphone.
it's not a big turn-on dude.

*//not caring whether she comes.
you have to finish the job. keep on trying until you get it right,
and she might even do the same for you. aww...

and lastly, *//a little somethin' somethin'.
never leave her alone to sleep goodnight while
you two doze off from back to back. make it
a special time for both of you to talk to each other,
snuggle in and look into each other's eyes.
oh, don't forget to feed her when she's hungry or thirsty.
then fall asleep together..
just don't leave her alone.
be romantic, not fuckanatic.

yeehaw! that's the end of the little tips for you today.
umm, for girls, maybe you'd want to note it down
and share these little bits off with your boyfriend.. heh heh.
haha, well, just for your reading pleasure people..

so anyhows, Friday and Saturday were good.
was out with baby, we watched King Kong on Friday..
aww it's a really sad movie! like, really really!
only baby saw how i cried.. hehehe.

we also had a yummy dinner at Marina Square. no pork baby! haha.
and was out in town yesterday with dear ernie, han, raz and baby..
slacked around McCafe, chilled, talked, gossiped, joked around and lotsa.
was hopin' to see Fara but she couldn't come.. soon princess!
han and baby had vanilla frappe. ernie had caramel frappe.
raz had iced chocolate and nunu had mango smooothie! *slurps.
all enough to gossip a whole lot. hehe.

so we all went to cineleisure's arcade.. baby played some aeroplane
thingymajiggo. and han was telling me to "kiss his ear! kiss his ear!"
so that i could distract beebee the pilot. hahahaha.
pilot for the day uh b?! hehehe. the five of us played that
i-don't-know-what-it's-called game. that hockey game.
we had such a majorly awesome time together. playing and shouting!
ernie, raz and me vs carl and han. we made sooo much noise
and the people around were just looking and laughing at us.

then raz and me played DDR! yes, DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION!
hahahaha it was absolutely fun!
sooooo fun! i soooo wanna play it again. then we went to get
HOTDOG! hahaha, chicken weiner that is. yummmmsies.
then baby spread some pickle bits and american mustard. haha.
try it! the pushcart outside cineleisure. it's yummydooops. *pinches fats*

then we all headed down to the esplanade later in the night,
met up with ernie's tall sister and shekaa.
camwhored, laughed, joked, boobie-grabbed.. hahaha.
and miss ernie officially labeled carl&me the kinky couples.

hahaha. it was really fun with all of them.
one of the very best days i've had.
then ernie left a mark on my skin. a payback for the time
i left a mark on her skin. hehehe. then we KISSED!
omg so sweeet right! hehe. pictures of those soon!
I LOVE YOU ERNIE* kiss kiss kiss.. mwaaaacks!

so it was baby&me *four months last night.
the seventh of january 2006.
a really sweet moment for the both of us..
just when the time striked 9:57PM, our special time,
Stick Wit U (the pussycat dolls)
was playing in the background of where we were standing.. aww..
it was so romantic and the best thing was actually,
having Him standing right in front of me.. and the sweet kiss.
it was so beautiful beebee. Happy Four Months Anniversary.
nobody gonna love me better, i'm gon' stick wit u forever..

went back home to baby's place..
and had a gooooood night. zzzz.. <3
and to my dear goodfriends, thanks for the awesome time today.

later walligator.

and beebee, you're just perfect for me.
my perfect karlee-bee.
let's do the bee-bee!! again.. hehe.
lots of love.
x o x o

because i'm fuhqin` bored..

2006-01-05T19:32:00.000+08:00
because i'm fuhqin`bored..

8 firsts.

first boyfriend: and they call it puppy love.. yazid; the primary schoolmate.
who's also and still my neighbour of a few doors away. haha, hilarious!
first kiss: does baby kisses from the momsie count?
first screen name: mizbehavinbitch. ngeh heh. those 'bitch' days.
first pet: seri my pet cat when i was four. (rip)
first piercing: ears, i'm sure that's mostly every girl's first pierce.
first crush: from what i remember, when i was in first grade.
first music: the spice girls! they were awesome way back then.
first alcholic beverage: smirnoff.

7 lasts.

last cigarette: djarum black. the last ever whole stick i puffed. ew, please.
and then i stopped. ("allergic to ciggies") but i still do light cigarattes
for my boyfriend every now and then. hahaha.
last alcoholic beverage: if it's not that white wine which tasted like
stinkfish, it's the jack daniels mix'd with coke. errrr, heh.
last car ride: does the cabride yesterday counts?
last kiss: from baby!! smoooooch.
last movie seen: the family stone.
last phone call: from baby!!
last cd played: i don't remember the last cd i played.
i think urrrm, britney spears?

6 have you evers.

have you ever dated one of your bestfriends: ew, no.
have you ever loved somebody: i'm loving one now, and forever.
have you ever broken the law: errm, techniqly, no.
i've never been caught.
have you ever been arrested: nah uh no way,
and i'd like to keep it that way.
have you ever skinny-dipped: in pampers? yes. hah.
have you ever been on tv: yes! on channel news asia. hilarious!

5 things.

5 things you're wearing: white camisole, paw printed pyjama pants,
silver bracelet, red panties(naughty!), and my hairband?
5 things you've done today: watched tv, ate cookies, hogged on the phone,
did the house chores, also the laundry.
5 things you can't live without: water, perfume, computer,
dollar bills, errrm, and green tea? hah.
5 last things you bought recently: za foundation,
black hair-clips (because i keep losing them), contact lenses,
plain forever 21 tee, hmmm chipsmore cookies.
5 things you last touched: the phone, the door, the keyboard,
my hair and myself. eeeps.

4 favourite things in no order.

1. my favourite pillow.
2. nail polishes.
3. the phone.
4. my diary.

3 people you can tell 'almost' anything to.

1. carl.
2. ernie.
3. hmm, God? ~~people.~~

2 choices.

1. money or kids; kids definitely! but hmm, money too. heh heh.
2. black or white; i prefer white, but black could be nice.

1 thing you want to do before you die.
get married to carl robert, make babies and have a happy family together.

complete the sentences.

last night: i watched the oc on my pc and fell asleep.
i'll be: one happy chic, married to mr. carl robert, have an adorable
baby girl, with 2 kittens and a puppy all living in a wonderful house. hee!
there's a: carl robert in my heart! hahaha, cheesy.

okay, okay. enough with all that cheese.
i'm actually bored and totally bored.
didn't go out today, and hmm maybe not tomorrow.
i want to watch King Kong! i know i'm a little outdated,
i guess everyone have watched it, well except for me.
i heard it's a really sad show, sad ending, crying parts,
awww, i'm sure i'd be crying real bad.

watched the family stone with baby a few days back.
it's good, a little unexpected and stuffs. more like a family
kind of movie, a little mushy love love here and there.
though i've never thought of falling in love with my boyfriend's brother!
hahahaha, ok a bit of a spoiler there, but thank God nothing like that
has ever happened to anyone around me. not that i know of.
and phew, carl doesn't have a brother, and my sister's way too old for him.
ngehehe.

my brother's getting married in July!
something i'm sooo looking forward to.
finally, his stuffs will be permanently outta my room.
well hey, i ain't that bad. just really happy that finally
he's having his own family and stuffs. and my sister too,
getting married soon sometime this year i hope.
errm, i wonder when's my turn. hahahaha! fat hope.
still a looooong way to go dude.

i stayed at home the whole day, watched tv most of the time.
there was 'love don't cost a thing' on HBO this afternoon,
a pretty good show. more for like teensies weensies, chic flic thingymajiggy.

oh, my cousin is getting engaged sometime this month,
if i'm not wrong and from what i heard, they've been together
for like what, six years? wow. and it's a real good surprise to know
that they both have gone that far. and semi-finally they're getting
engaged, then married with plenty of babies! wooooweee.
more nephews and nieces to play with. i love babies. haha, ok random.

anyhows, i don't really have much to talk about right now.
i might be roller-blading later around my neighbourhood.
feeling bored, been staying at home. i need to go out, like soon.
$#@&%# and i miss baby, so totally.

puppee powwa!
later walligator.
x o x o

a lame motherfooking* biatch, on the loose.

2006-01-03T17:48:00.000+08:00
it's okay, i never really liked you anyway.

hola`2006!
okay, like finally. the year started off good!
i was with dear ernie, darling fara, fir and my hunkydoo baby.
we managed to get a magnificaso view of the fireworks.
fara, ernie and me just couldn't stop doing the 1, 2, 3.. AAAAAHHHH!!!!

yes yes it was really amazing with my bestest peeps around me.
welcomed 2006 with a kiss from ernie, fara and of course my baby.
it was such a sweeten moment. love you darlings, to bits and crushes. <3

an absolute wonderful time with them,
and especially my dear carl robert.

the bbq was fun too except that it had to rain and stuffs,
but all went good when the rain stopped.
was feeling freezing cold at most times,
but thankfully the sweater baby bought me from canada
kept me warm and snuggly in his arms.

a comfy dark brown ladies sweater with flower graphics& pasted prints.
from bluenotes.

too bad bluenotes website doesn't have the picture of my sweater.
so that means i gotta snap and publish it myself. heh heh. it's so pretty!
i've been wanting to get a nice sweater, and baby got me one. yehaw!
so anyways, here it is.

it's real pretty! ernie and me even said similar things.
"carl, you have a girl's taste." awwsome yes! and uhm,
heh, baby got me a pretty little panties too. hehe. how adorable.

ernie got a fabolos rocker girl miniature guitar,
with a black candle in the middle. its a good gift for ernie!
she loves it. especially the logo. haha.

sweet sweet baby bought us both pretty little gifts from canada.
and ehm, not forgetting my girly panties. hahahahaha. that's a good one.
and yup, his momsies gave me tidbits and a lil' crystal amethyst with a
soldier man standing on it. (that should be mr. carl robert on the lookout!)
heheh. oh, my mom and aunts already finished off the tidbits. tsk tsk tsk.

anyhows, the momsie and daddy-o went to the airport a while ago,
so i'm all alone now. urgh *cringes* i don't really like being
alone at this hour. its already almost ten.
bah. i'm such a silly scaredy-poot.

i've got lots of things in mind and plenty of things to settle.
it's going to be a bit of a busy week for me. oh 2006, please be nice to me.
and hopefully i'll get to meet baby very soon,
since we both will be busy with school and shiznits. gah.

i'm off to something else.
later walligator.

x o x o

Baby's coming home sooon!!* yipeee =)

2005-12-29T22:41:00.000+08:00
so i just got back home, was out with ERNIE darling.
we were late, (for you know what ernz!)
and the funniest moment of the day was walking up the stairs.
crazily hilarious. "we will go through it together.."
but thankfully, we're safe from FIRE!! hahahaha.

headed to suntec, went to purchase some stuffs.
was invited to go for a bbq pit at east coast with the colleagues.
but after last minute of plans and contemplation, we decided not to.

well so the day was fine.
bought boxes and trays of chocolates.
but most of it aren't for me.. heh heh.

baby&family are scheduled on a flight back to singapore.
and hmm, plane departs Calgary at 8:05AM. (local time there)
so yeps, it's 11:00PM spore now,
so it's gonna be plane departure for them in about five minutes time?

wish my baby & his family a safe trip back here.
well he's only gonna reach Saturday midnight after the clock strikes twelve.
i just can't wait to see him at the airport with the goodfriends. *winks*

let's see, we'll all be bringing in the
brand new year in a couple of days time.
leaving this year full of memories and embracing a new beginning.

i hope it's not too late! it's time for me to
pen down my new year resolutions. and oh, you all should do it too!

goodbye 2005, hello 2006 entry on its way.

and to Raz, thank you so much for helping me.
i will never forget this friendship we have.
although things may not be the same in the future,
i'm letting you know, that it has been great having you
in my life here. maybe things won't go as how we planned,
but here in my heart you'll always remain as a very good friend.
don't forget `*Ali&Oli.

good night alls.
x o x o

Can't Wait To See BABY!! *

2005-12-29T01:22:00.000+08:00
`*goodbye 2005..

sorry for the lack of updates!
a lot has happened the past few hmm, weeks?
some things i feel isn't right mentioning here.
this only the goodfriends and the boyfriend knows.

and yes, i can't wait to see Baby again!
it's been weeks without him here, and it's totally dreadful.
miss him sooo crazily. but thanks to the endless calls by him,
or i couldn't have controlled the misses of not hearing his voice.

worse still, not seeing him at all, for weeeeks!
no, no, i hope that doesn't happen again..
not anytime soon please.. * shudders *

let's see, baby's arriving on Saturday midnight,
which is actually Sunday. mmm, new year that is.

so the goodfriends and i will be heading to the airport!
and mmm, countdown-ting in the airport i guess? ngehehe.
oh i'll be welcoming him with balloons and party-poppers.
hah! just messing. you can imagine if that happens.

and i've already booked a barbecue pit for the new year,
so yeps, we'll all be having a bbq at east coast! gosh, the excitement.

all i wanna do is sleep; CLOSE MY EYES and wake up,
all just in time for Baby's arrival. yaaaaaaay!

well let's see, weeks without my baby. so TERRIBLE but well, still fine. heh.

the first week was unbearable. and then i sorta got used to it,
but that doesn't change the fact that i MISS HIM so muchos.

and thankfully, with his calls and our long-distance conversations,
we catched up with stuffs and i managed to feel a lil better..
at least there's ways to communicate with each other.
or i'd just ROT without the sight, the sound and the touch of his. ngehe.
and that would be missssserable..

all that pessimistic thoughts aside, it's all excitement now.
meeting the boyfriend after almost a month of not in each other's sight.

anyhows, i've been spending most days with darling miss ernie.
and the other time we all went to Lau Pa Sat because big boss was
giving us a wonderful treat. Satay, Stingray, Baby Squid, Sotong Fritter,
Dried Chilli Chicken and Black Pepper Chicken, Belacan Kangkong..
oh goodness gracious vivacious me. it was uber fulfilling please!
and Belacan Kangkong.. the oomph! food orgasmy. hahaha. ew.

the tummy was obviously waaaaay bloated, but super yum!
and oh! it was my first ever time riding in a convertible that day.
a sexaye sleek black convertible.. *jooooy!*

been having goood food always recently. ahem, FREE goood food.
the other time was tons of Pizza Hut and KFC. the whole group
just kept eating and talking, laughing and joking around..

have you ever mix'd KFC's chilli with Pizza Hut's cheese powder?
AHHHHHH.. *creaaaams..* and then you dip the PH's taaasty
chicken drumlets.. meat lover's pizza slices, coleslaw, garlic bread..

ahhh i can go on and on and on.. but i just don't want to get my
keyboard soaked with drool all over.. and you wouldn't want too!

well so i guess it's time for my rest.
feeling a lil tired and sleepy.

missing my friends too.
been eons again since i met princess fara.
and the goodfriends. of course, the boyfriend.
so yes, am so looking forward to the new year!

and oh! haha i just remembered.
miss nurin! i still owe you the "create a blogskin" entry.
haha, plenty of sugarcoated apologies. it will come, soon!
and ohs, GLAM BITCHIQS! bitchings soon.
*splashes black paint on that cake face and
hurls heavy paint tin on her head while she
swivels like a ding-dong* .. to be continued.

and yes, there's a follower on the loose. (to be revealed, soon!)
you can never know, a girl friend cum rival could turn into such
an obvious smackwhore style follower. ghooooouly bitch!

good night and lots of love everyone.
x o x o

I MISS MY BABY SO MUCH* and what's in my bag?

2005-12-19T00:24:00.000+08:00
bag check.*

here's whats in my bag; the total must-haves.
let's see, make-up bag. hmm any girl doesn't have this in theirs?
purse, of course super essential; that's where dollar bills are stored.
key is important. i don't like getting locked outside the house.
pen and notepad? hmm, boredom doodlings or crap/work purposes.
nivea loves; hand cream and moisturizing lotion. a pampering need.
mp3, oh man, baby's mp3 and muzik i love!
wet tissues? you'll never know when it's needed.
shades; need i say more? shadies on!
carl's watch; my baby's watch! he gave it to me before
going away to canada. something to remind me of him.
and i gave him my bracelet too! <3
so everywhere i go, its with me. its either on my wrist or in my bag.
so when i look into the bag (or my wrist),
it never fails to remind me of baby! love you b!!
cellphone; baby's celly. for the phonecalls of course.
escada parfum; ouh! i love this one. *sniff-sniff*
ernie always has her escada bottle in her bag too! i learnt it from her. <3
mimi the shawl; a must have! i loike. to keep me warm
and snuggly whenever i feel shivering cold. mimi is poke easy! haha.
i think only ernie and me understands what that means.

hmmm, well i think that's all for now.
maybe the next time, it'll be cockroaches and worms. hah! just messing.

had work today and i'm super tired.
was around at holland.v then to town.
all six girls squeezed into isk's car! haha.
well quite loads happened today. really tired to elaborate.
maybe next time yes? work again tomorrow at the office.
oh yessa! we're painting the office on tuesday! yipee.
i love painting walls. and especially if YOUR face is stucked on it.
i make sure i shove that huge brush tip up your nostrils.

about eleven more days 'till baby's back.
I MISS MY BABY SO MUCH.
he called in again today, and we gossiped a whole lot!
hahaha, my boyfriend is the best gossip partner.
and then the next best one is ernie bernie of course.
the best gossip partners to have. the trusties. <3
and of course, the champion of all gossipers, Razali! prot prot..
ngehehe. and whoever partner-in-crime.

ok all that cow-crap aside.
i'm getting really waaay tired.
need my sleep and dream of my carlys.

i'll blog again tomorrow.
and oh, apologies for the boring updates lately. bah, so tired.

good night cheese.
x o x o

i love you baby!

Happy Baby Called!* missin' b & shoppppin'!

2005-12-16T01:10:00.000+08:00
shop 'till you break the glass.
(just a short and simple update before i go to bed)

hello there cheeses.
shopping this afternoon was awesome.
my purse is running out of dollar bills now.
but shopping can't stop me.
-Forever21 Tee.
-Pink boho-ish bag.
-Juicy Couture bag.
-Accessorize purse.
-Faded Denim Mini.
-Flip-flops.

(i don't know why i'm so obsessed with bags now?
oh and footwear? don't mention, it runs in the family!)

and there's more to come. hahaha.
shopping and manicure with dear princess Fara tomorrow!

then tagging along with Ernie to work on Sunday!
and yes, before i forget,
*drumrolls*

BABY called in from Canada a few hours back!
i wasn't in contact with him for like four days,
and it was a total dreadful situation for me.
got really worried and stuffs kept wondering if B's doing fine,
so i was with the momsie earlier, she was asking where Carl
was and where he went and this that ladeeda..

then shockingly, Baby called in about five minutes after.
i was really shocked, surprised, a little speechless to hear
his voice on the telly! we were like repeating "hello(s)"
and i was like, "OMG!B!!! I MISS YOUUUUU!!!!" awww..
i couldn't stop telling him that i miss him so badly.
he was telling me how freezing cold it is there,
and how he wished i was just right there beside him.
awww.. i'm missing him so much more!

we talked and talked and i couldn't resist hearing his voice,
I MISS MY BABY SO MUCH! so i had to release my tears
when we had to end the conversation.. awww..
but he promised that he'd call again tomorrow.
something i'm looking forward to.

i'm so glad he gave me a call.
both telling each other how much they're missed.
and i'm sure he's having a helluva freezing wondertime there.

oh yes, before anything else.
i say PLENTY of you keep asking me or sometimes
have the wrong idea of Carl. (his mix and et cetera..)
he's half-malay and half-brit. that makes him eurasian yes?
and so he's not canadian or what you call it white boy;
however rude or sarcastic (^.") you wanna be.
and why he's in canada this that ladeeda, please ask me or go figure.
don't just simply get the wrong idea. thank you very nice. *

anyhows, the momsie wants me back to bed.
she's now being my personal care assistant.
make sure i get enough sleep and no eye-bags.
she was like "MAKE SURE when it's your brother's
wedding day, both you and your sister gotta have
muka cantik and badan slim eh." right. yes mom. hahaha.

oh, the sister, son and boyfriend flying off tomorrow night.
might be sending them off to the airport at 4AM.

so yes, uber excited for shopping and manicure with Fara!
and missing dear Ernie hoping to see her soonies.
and shopping with Raz today was goooood!
plus the absolute funny things that happened.
i'll elaborate more soon.

so little time, so much to do..

I LOVE YOU BABY!
absolutely missing you.

and later walligator.
good night. <3

i miss my hunkydoo.
x o x o

karlee's girl* miss baby.

2005-12-14T14:19:00.000+08:00

blessed to be karlee's girl.*
good afternoonies.
and just two more weeks before we're all ushered into 2006.
another spanky brand new year, again.

i don't know about you, but i feel this year grooves fast, really fast.
like i don't really feel its contents. but no doubt, ALOT has happened.
when the new year comes, everyone's gonna say goodbye 2005.

two 2 thou00sand 5 five.
a year with plentyful of rollercoaster rides.

a year i left my past and a bag full of memories behind.
a year i thought started out fine, but was then left in turmoil.
a year i lost a loved one, and a year i lost a bestfriend.
a year of melancholy, much sadness and tears.
a year i thought wouldn't be good enough for me that i almost gave up.
a year i had never ever expected would turn out the way it would *

a year i embraced new found glories.
a year i tried my very best to move on.
a year i found the loveliest bestfriend.
a year i then knew i would be strong.
a year full of late-nights, sleepovers and camera pictures.
a year filled with girls day out, blogging craze and happy tears.
a year i attended the best birthday party ever.
a year with the goodfriends that i got closer.
a year i never ever expected, i'd find the sweetest lover.
a year i knew in my heart, i'm gonna love this boy forever.

and a year, with so much memories to remember,
and a year i now make a vow, i'll never leave you loves, never ever.
a year my girlfriends, goodfriends, family and my LOVE i'll treasure.
a year i wish, the beautiful things i have with me now,
lasts forever and ever.

i make a wish. *

so much has happened this year,
and i feel blessed with all that i have now. Y
and of course, i'm looking forward to 2006,
its contents waiting up ahead for me.

well, my brother's and sister's wedding will be held next year.
wow, that's really something i'm so looking forward to.
and then, i'll be the only brat in the family, the last to get married.
hahahaha! of course, the special youngest cutest most loveliest daughter.
(goshees, gag me with a spoon!)

i'm so missing my karlee right now.
missing him so terribly.

i wish that i close my eyes,
and when i open it, he's back and right here with me.

baby, baby! i miss you badly.
i think i have 15 more days to endure? oh my cheese baby.
*pulls a sad face*

time pass so slow when you're not around,
but i'm still waiting everyday, to finally be in your arms again.

a part of you has grown in me, together forever we shall be,
never apart, maybe in distance, but not in heart..

i miss you karlee bee..
x o x o

Missin' My Baby Badly. *baby, i love you!!*

2005-12-13T12:42:00.000+08:00

and i just can't seem to get you off my mind*

good afternoon cheese.
i had quite a good sleep, though i did find myself awake
at two timings; 4:35AM and 6:15AM, and all i did was
hop on to the compy and checked if baby was online.
but too bad for me, he wasn't. and i miss him so terribly.

surprisingly, i feel good today.
maybe after the yoga that Raz taught me to do last night.
i was feeling terrible then, called him, crying on the phone.
telling him how much i miss baby and how it's gonna get
worse for the next couple of weeks that baby's not gonna be around.

Raz told me to do the yoga so i'd feel better.
all i know is that i was fast asleep after the yoga.
and then in the morning i woke up feeling fresh and fine.
but that doesn't change the fact that i still miss my baby.

so well, i gotta say, the so-called yoga does help! thanks Raz! hehe.
all the yoga-poga stuffs aside.

on a much brighter note, i'm finally going out today!
after plenty of days, cooping myself up at home,
i've decided to enjoy my time outside with my friends.
although it would be nice if baby's here with us too. aww.

i've planned to get pretty cute tees for myself,
and some other stuffs that's on the list of my mind.
so that makes it a shopping day today!

oh, not to forget, i'm heading off to KL on thursday
with my family and relatives for a shopping trip.
for how many days it will be, i ain't sure yet.

shopping, shopping, shopping.
i can never get enough of it. *

well, it's night time in Calgary now.
i wonder what baby is doing there.
hope he knows that i'm here thinking of him. aww. *huggs.

talked to Fara last night, so sweet of her to call me,
she said if i really miss my boyfriend i can
go ahead and hug her boyfriend, haha darlin, nooo!
even if i did, it won't feel the same. hehehehe. just messin.
and she cheered me up. aww, huggs for you girlie.
Raz, Fara and Ernie always helping me to cheer up. aww..
so sweeeeet. so here's another bigggg biggg hugg! haha.
and of course, i so wanna hug my baby now, and except
for my girlfriends, there's no one else i wanna hug.
my baby and my girlfriends, the ones who light my life.

or should i say, *light my fire, light my fire, light my fire!*
hahaha, my baby and Ernie should know what i'm talking about.

it's time to have my bath now,
then get ready and meet my friends, hoppin' off to town.

later walligator.

baby, though you're so far away,
here in my heart&mind you'll always stay.
Missin' You, Carl.
x o x o

Missin' My Baby. *

2005-12-12T14:44:00.000+08:00

trace my lips.*
hello again! i'm finally home for good.
let's see, been @ commonwealth for the past couple of weeks,
and before that i've not always been at home, that includes the
lack of updates, this that shiznat, yadda-yadda..

a lot has happened lately, i haven't been around for
my dance practice, i had to take care of my sister back
in commonwealth since she was really unwell a week ago.
but yes now everything's fine, hopefully i'll get back to
the dance practice on friday. KIM! plenty of apologies babe.

still, i'll miss my sister because she's going off to London
with her son and boyfriend. and of course my baby who's
in Canada now. gosh, everyone's leaving me here in s'pore ey?

now i feel so much at ease, in my room, just "spring cleaned" it,
having my rest day. after much that has happened, i'm actually
feeling a little unwell, but all's fine. i might be heading out later.

to those who've cheered me up through the boring days,
boredom-nation alone at home, moodless to go out because of my
i-miss-my-boyfriend illness attack. Raz, Fara, Ernie, Ria..
they've been such sweethearts to me.

and well of course, MY LIL' SWEETHEART himself,
he came online last night, and we had a webcam+voice conversation.
he was showing me his pouty-cherry-red-lips, with his cheesy smile..
then he showed me "canada pencil, canada scotch-tape.." hahahaha,
even at times like these he never fails to cheer me up.
though i was being such a boogerface, sad pork and all frowny.
the sweetest thing was he knew how to make me smile, he always does.
aww baby! i miss you sooo much and sooo terribly! love you b! <3

and on a brighter note, i'll be meeting Fara soon, yes please.
we'll both be going for a manicure! that's flippin' awesome babe.
it's been such a long time since we hung out just the both of us,
like the pretty old days. i'd say, we relive the moments! hahaha.
then we can visit Ernie and her macaroni! i'm so craving for it.
love you two cheesee babees! *

anyhows, i'm hopping off right now!
gonna start shayking to some boogey beats,
then have my shower and ~~head out.~~
i've decided to stay at home and rest! it's shopping day tomorrow. ;)
nunu's got that flow to make that booooty go _____*`
whooooopeeee.

hopefully, more updates tonight.

later walligator!
and I MISS YOU BABY!

x o x o

baby!!!

2005-12-11T12:08:00.000+08:00
baby!!!!!!im in canada nw.. the plane was damn fuckin long sia!!singapore to japan 6 hrs japan too US 10 hrs..den US too canada 2hrs.. u imagine sittin fer so long on de sit...tak leh berak sak hehe...its really freezing here man!!haha b!!!! i miss u so much i wanna hug u nw!!and guess wad??ders home alone 1 in de plane aahha!!yeah thank god tat my uncles house got a computer and a webcam too...soo hope ur online very soon i wanna tok to u so badly..buuuut i werent forget de promise u gave me ah...hah u noe i noe baby..ok b!!gtg bubbye see u online k muacks!!!love u love u love u love u love u love u!!!!!!hhee

bay's gone to canada. *sobs*

2005-12-11T11:22:00.000+08:00
* missing you badly.

here's just a quick update.
i'm at my sister's place, using glen's laptop.
baby has gone to canada, he left on Friday midnight.

i still have no idea how long he's gonna be there for,
might be for ten days or he'll be back on the 29th.
of course i'm all hope-fulls that he'll gets back very soon, please!

well baby left me his watch, mp3 and celly.
i'll be holdin' on to his celly 'till he's back.
so far, i've received about more than a couple
of phonecalls from baby's friends, 'cus some of them
had no idea he had gone to canada.

gosh, i miss him terribly.

i'll blog again soon.

*..sobs..*
x o x o